Friday, December 31, 2004

Happy New Year People

Welp, 2004 is almost over. There is only about 12 and a half hours left of it. Now it is time to look back on our year and see what was good and what we could do better in hopes of making next year even better.

I, myself, had a tremendus (sp?) year. I dont know how they get much better. I mean it started out rough with having no money and not having the guts to ask mom and dad for some so I would just starve instead. God, I was stupdid. But How many years do you get to complete pick up all of your things and completely start over in a new place, on a new life? That was pretty great. I hope that 2005 can live up to it. But I gtet a lot of great things to do next year like come home! And I get to live in a house again. So I would like to say good bye to 2004. It has done me well. And I look forward to 2005. And my your new year be as blessed as mine has been!

Ok, anyway last night we bought a couch. Matt is so scared to tell his mom. He doesnt want her to freak. BUt I love this couch and so does Matthew. It is from the Ashley Homestore. It is off-white (I, Know hold on) It has an ottoman that goes with it and it has a chaise attached, which is what I wanted. At first I told Matthew no, because it was a light color. But it is made of this fabric that you cant stain. And we got it extra protected so if anything gets on it that we cant get out, they will send someone out to clean it for us. And for some reaso, if they cant get it out they will re cover the couch. For ten years! I love it, but we do kinda feel guilty about buying it. I mean we JUST got our credt cards paid off. BUt I LOVE it. I want to sit in it right now. Well, i need to call my mommy so I have to go. Bye! HAppy New Year

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

I figured it out!

From Disney World Posted by Hello

This is Matthew's birthday hat. And my Wizrd hat. We DO NOT like attention.

Just testing this out Posted by Hello
Matt and I plan on hitting some year end clearance furniture sales and seeing if there are any that we like. I want to go and get a clothesline since I will have a basement and can do like Amanda did and hang clothes up down there. I am saving my money though so I can get a puppy. Matthew wants a cat so bad. he will probably get a cat first. Cats hate me. All of his did anyway. Except Rusty. She was a good cat. I had been trying to pick out some names I like. Matt thinks I should wait till I see the piuppy and then I would know what I wanted, but I like to be prepared. Plus it gives me something to do besides worry about work.

We started inventory. So I am really bogged down and then you through moving on top of it and its the same way I started LAST year! I'm just glad that the holiday season is almost over and I can "relax" a bit. Once January is over I can start thinking about coming home. I already told Lori that we were going to go. Hopefully I an have at least two weeks.

Christmas was nice. We opened presents in the morning and then went over to Marcus and Amelia's for dinner. We had turkey and ham and potatoes amd corn and green beans and pie. So it was kinda nice to have a meal like that. Granted its not crablegs, but its still nice. I'm kinda kickin mself now cuz I didnt think to send some home for Christmas dinner. Thats what we always had on Christmas. Oh, well, next year.

I got some really nice stuff. Matt did a good job for not have a list, and never having had to shop for me like that. I got a hose : ), an Epson picture printer, $150 for Victoria's sercret, a pet feeder, and a water fountain for the pets, and My little Ponies from Amanda, and slippers from mommy and daddy and some clothes from them too. And my satin sheets from Matthew. We have found that having the satin pillow cases on is kinda a pain cuz they slide right off the bed so we went back to the old ones. Of, course I got Harry Potter. Jim and Layurie gave me a Simon gift card to use at my mall. I will proably use it to go to JC Penny's cuz they are having some AWESOME sales over there. Maybe I wil browse the home department and get something cute for the house. That's what I am probably going to do with the one from Julie and Brian. I love picking out stuff for the house. I am so excited. OH! ANd julie found this adorable little ornament that is these two pink flamigos and the its a him and a her and they are wearing these little hats and it sez "our First Christmas Together" and their legs are all dangly. It is SO cute! So thank you everyone if I havent already told you. I will be sure to let you know exactly what I picked out.

Hopefully this publishes. The last couple of times I tried to post it wouldnt do it. so cross your fingers. Of course if you're reading this then it did and you dont really need to... ANyway. Good night.

Sunday, December 26, 2004


How do you make the first Christmas together truely unforgettable? You (matthew) fnd out that we have a house, keep it a secret and then tell you wife (me) on Christmas morning by giving her auto doggy feeder with our new address taped to the side. I cant believe he was a ble to keep it a secret. He was dying to tell me but didnt. But he couldnt wait for me to open what he called the grand daddy of all Christmas presents.I cant wait to move out of here. I mean I like it, but it is an apartment and comes with everything an apartment comes with. I am so excited. He did a good job for not having a Christmas list from me. Oh, well,. I have to get to work now so I will talk more later. I have to go bundle up for the sub-zero temperatures outside. I just ant to crawl back into bed. Matt got me satin sheets and now I never want to leave my bed again!

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Happy Winter

Alrigght people. With the coming of winter, today we officailly start gaining sunlight. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! Yesterday marked the shortest day of the year. Official sunrise is 10:14 am and sunset was 3:40 pm. Today sunset is at 3:42 pm. 2 extra minutes! Of course you cant tell anyway since it has been overcast and snowy the past few days but it is the principle of the matte r and we are once again travelling closer to the sun. Yay. Now I must go take a shower. K. Bye

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

I feel like I need to be shot or something. I forgot that this was the last Sunday before Christmas, which means we had Family Christmas... I need to come home soon. That is really all there is to it. I told Lori yesterday that I was planning on going home in March. I just didnt tell for how long. Matthew wants to come home for three weeks but i dont know if I can do that. I hope she lets me. And I told her that I wanted to come home next year for Christmas. She said as long as there is someone to cover my shifts then I can leave. That wont be too hard. Its easier to for me to have my shifts covered than it is for Rohni. No one can open except me and i have to close so we are kinda in a bind. But anyway...

We havent gotten a call about a house yet. I just dont even want to think about having to move again. And I dont have a ready supply of boxes like I did when I worked at WM. So that will be a challenge. I would really like it to be after the holidays. Matt wants it to be next week since he has the whole week off and could get a lot of moving done. I havent decided how we are going to do this. If we are going to start with the bedroom and sleep over there at the house and eat and stuff here or do the kitchen and the bedroom and have the TV and stuff over here. I dont know. It will be interesting. Always a challenge.

I have been getting pretty emotional lately. It will probably be worse by Saturday. I just dont feel like it is Christmas, but I want so badly to not be sad. If I am sad, Matthew will be sad, and I dont want that. I want him to have a happy Christmas. I mean I know I will have a happy Christmas and that not everything can stay the same and I know that we are starting our own traditions and all of that, but i need to be a bit irrational about it too. You know? I cant always look and the logical side of things. Sorry it is just not who I am. But I need to go to bed, my husband is waiting for me. I wil write later when I have more time.

Thursday, December 16, 2004


Matthew called the housing office a couple of days ago and we were 54th on the waiting list. Today he found out that he sews on another stripe on Sunday, so now he is a Sr Airman. And he called the housing office and we are next on the list. As soon as a house opens up its ours if we want it. hOWS THAT FOR chRISTMAS?

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

They are ready!

K, they are ready. I even added some captions.

You can also go here and veiw the ones the disney photographers took.

Monday, December 13, 2004


Ok, it is taking a bit longer than anticipated to get my pictures up and available. But I am working on it and they should be ready by Wednesday. Thank you for your patience. HeeHee. No really I am working on it but I am still a bit jet lagged and I have had to work.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

We are home

We are safe and sound back in the land of eternal sunlight. I will post more later, right now I have to go to work but I will have pictures posted and stuff tonight when i get off of work. We had a great time and I have some good pictures! K love ya all

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

So much to do, noy enough money

We leave for Disney Wold in like 17 days. I'm excited to have some time off of work, but still have not worked up my urges to go. Now I am thinking that we are wasting this money and there are so many other things we should be using it for. I mean we are trying to get this house, and that will mean rearranging our budget since we wont have that extra money coming in. Matthew wants to go to Hawaii next year, and I want to go home, which wont be that expensive since I have a lot of miles stacked up and more on the way. So we will prolly have a free trip.

But the big thing is that Matthew and I had a pretty serious discussion about kids. Matthew is ready right now. We are not ready, I mean I want them, but we cant afford kids right now. And besides I want to be with MAtthew just the two of us for awhile. He knows and he is waiting for me to be ready. plus we think that people will freak out, since they have a tendency to do that. So here is one more thing I have to deal with cuz people will not think its a good idea and lecture us and blah, blah, blah...

So that is all for now.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

View all our photos

I know I have been sending a lot of these out but you can view all of our pictures at the above address

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Moving, again

Matthew and I have been concidering moving on base, into a house. Espically after lst night. The guy below us had his bass turned up and the peope above us were walking around at all hours and then the drunk people in the parking lot at 3am. There are som many pluses to moving. We would have more room, a garage, a yard (though small) we could get a puppy, we would have our own washer and dryer, in our house. No one living above or below us. The safety of the base. But the down side is that I just got settled into this place. I'm too lazy to move again. We would have to pack up everything and move it. Tough we wouldnt be going far so it wouldnt be too horrible. Then there is unpacking again. I guess I am just lazy. But we are definately considering it. We would have more room so when people came to visit they wouldnt be stuck in our little apartment with us. (sorry mom and dad, you had to be stuck in that little room!) But we've been considering it. Especially since Matthew is probably gonna stay out his term here so we will be here till 2008. It would be nice to have a house to spend that time in instead of an apartment.

Friday, November 12, 2004

Dont kick my Christmas

Sometime I dont know what is going through his head and what the hell he is thinking when he says stuff. I mean I know that he doesnt know how important Christmas is to me, or how special things associated with it is to me... Then I just have these realizations that he doesnt really know a lot about me, if he did then he would know that saying that he was mad that we had to get a star that matched the decor. I'm sorry but I like to have a theme. I let him put his obsenely large ornaments on the tree. I could have said no, knowing that he would do it if I said no, but I didnt. I let him pick out whatever ornaments he wanted. Because it made him happy. All I wanted was a star that matched but we couldnt find a blue and/or siliver star that lit up. He wanted it to light up so I looked for one that lit up. There was one white one that lit up but with red lights, so we bought some blue lights to switchout with the red. When we plugged it in, it blew up (sort of). So he got all frustrated and knocked an ornament off the tree and then kicked it. I told him I didnt care about the star, I was more upset that he kicked my ornament. So he said HE was upset we had to have a star that matched. Now hes all mad that I have shut myself up in the computer room. I'm sorry but I dont want ot be around him. He has these mood swings that really bug me. One minute he is all cute and cuddly, the next he cant kepp his hands of me and the next minute he is all pissy. I swear, you people thought I had mood swings.

I cant help that Christmas is very special to me, and it is really hard to be away from home. And all I have to connect me to my family are the ornaments on that tree. I dont care if it is one I got when I was a baby or one I bought with Katie. I just said how much they mean to me. And him not caring about them is like not caring about a piece of me. I know that sounds stupid but anyone who knows me knows how much sentiment I put into things. Now matter how small or insignificant. I just dont think that he gets that sometimes. ANd those times I lock myself up and shut him out. Thinking that will teach him a lesson but knowing that it doesnt do anything.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

I think that I am going to go have the mole on the back of my neck removed. I dont think it is a threat or anything, I just dont like it. And since I probably have a high risk for skin cancer I am sure it would be the one that would be cancerous! Its just a thought.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004


I tried to type this the other day and then ghetto blogger kicked me off so I am going to try it again. Sunday I had my first earthquake. I mean we have had them since I have gotten here but I have never felt one before. Or at least I never noticed it. But Sundays was pretty big tremor. It was like a big jolt and then a little rumble. It kinda freaked me out cuz I didnt know what it was.

We go to Disney World pretty soon. I wish I could be more excited but I'm not. I feel so bed cuz Matthew is SOOO excited and I'm not. Truth be told I wish we were going home instead. Maybe it's just because I've never been before, but I am way more excited about March than I am about December. And I feel so bad

We put up our Christmas decorations at the store on Sunday. It was kinda fun. I think that Matthew bonded with Ralph a little. it was nice to see them get along. I listened to the CD Ralph and his group just recorded. Its all this gangster rap. I was just laughing, I mean it's good, really good. But rapper Ralph is SOOOO different from the Ralph I work with. He;s all talkin about bein street and niggas and hoes. I just laugh, cuz it is NOT the Ralph I know. My Ralph is a big Goofball. He aint no gansta. LOL. Its so funny.

We also decorated the apartment. I had a hard time with it. Christmas decoating was always a huge thing in our family. We would pile all five of us in dad's truck and we would sing carols and go pick out our tree. Then we would spend the day listening to Christmas music and decorating the tree and the house. So we went and we listened to Matt's burned off Christmas CD on the way to Wal-Mart to buy a fake tree. It wasnt the same. Then I opened up my box of ornament and decorations and a lot of them were from when me and Katie decorated the apartment. And the garland still smelled like the candle we got to put on the coffee table. And the ornament and colors and tinsel were all from me and Katie. And then I opened the box of all my real ornaments. Every year we would get a new ornament for the tree. I am definately doing that with my kids because those ornamenta mean SO much to me now that I am away from home. Its l;ike they each hold the joys of that year in my life. Each one has a memeory and each one a different meaning cuz they are from different times in my life. This is going to be SOOO hard on me. It already is and I havent even been able to live through Thanksgiving yet.

God give me strength.

Friday, November 05, 2004

Solid food... Oh how I have missed ye

Ok, so now that I do not want to kill myself and all of my insides have decided to remain on the inside of me, I returned to work today. I only work 4 hours on Friday so I figured I could handle it. It usually isnt ever busy so it was a nice transition back to the living world. I went to the doctor this morning. He seemed to think that there is nothing to be concerned about even though I have not eaten any solid food in 3 and a half days. He said it was just something that has been going around and I had to let it run its evil course through my body and it would go away on its own. "Drink lots of fluids and get planty of rest." Yeah right. Oh well I will try. So all is well, and I am stil alive. I will have to call my mommy and let her know I made it through all right. She was worried I was gonna let it go and have it turn into another New Year's episode. Hell, no. I WILL NOT go through that again. Not that I remember most of it since I was delirious with a fever. Ok, I need to go to bed now.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Rainbow Brite and the Star Stealer

I recieved my Rainbow Brite DVD in the mail today so if any of you were waiting for the day it came out officially on DVD it is out. It can be purchased on I shall be watchin it tomorrow. I love shows from my childhood.

Note: Voting was successful and it looks like Alaska WILL NOT be legalizing marijuna
So winter has arrived here. It isnt snowing today, but it is a brisk 20 degrees. Yeah. I'm SO glad that the only time I spend outside is my short storoll out to my car which has already been running for a 1/2 hour thanks to remote start and then from my car to the heated skywalk that attaches the parking garage to the mall. Poor Matthew. He has to work outside.

I did a bit of slipping and sliding on Monday going home in the snow. That was before I discovered 4 wheel drive. Matt is gonna put my stud tires on this weekend and I will be ready for winter.

Right now I haveto go shower so I can cast my ballot and decide whether Alaska should legalize marijuna and if they should outlaw bear baiting. I really dont know how I am going to vote on the pot thing. I have never really seiously thought about it. So I will actually do a bit of quick research then I will shower and vote. See ya patriots later.

Friday, October 29, 2004

I got my voter registration stuff in the mail the other day. I gues I am now officially a resident of Alaska. Matthew called me today. He has put the AF on standby meaning with all of this stuff going on at home with mom and grandma and stuff like that we are all set up so that if we need to go home we could be on a plane within a couple of hours. It is a nice feeling to know that. And mm seemed relieved she said that took a big weight off her shoulders. And mine too. But now I must go get ready for work and pick up my cape from the post office. Figures that they would try to deliver it the ONE day that I am not here in the morning!

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Aura Borealis

I had a very Alaskan day on Sunday. I woke up and it was snowing. On the way to work I saw the moose that hangs out around here. And Sunday night Matthew and I saw the Northern Lights. I tried to take a picture but they werent that bright. It wasnt very cold out. Matt says they ill be brighter when the temperature drops a bit more. They looked alot like the ones we saw in Iowa a couple few years ago. Do y'all remeber that? I called everyone to see. It was shortly before Matthew left for Alaska. Anyway, they were pretty green. But I was still excited.

Thursday, October 21, 2004

You know Katie used to have this skeleton we would get out for Halloween. It would sing superfreak. It entertained us like nothing you would ever believe. I miss that so much. We had our pumpkins. They lit up. One was me, the one with the psycho grin. And the other one was her, the one with the squinty eye. That night, in the hospital with her. I wanted so badly make make all her pain just go away. I just wanted to make everything ok again.No I just want to see her again. I miss her so much. Everytime Matthew and I have an argument, I want to call her. She was my bestest friend ever. I miss easy mac. And Bejewled and Law and Order. I cant watch it anymore. it isnt the same. I miss her so much. I want to make everything ok again. She needs me. i can feel it. Or maybe, I need her.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

Baby Fever

OK people I have caught the fever. I knew it would come sooner or later but I just figured it would be later. I know that I have to wait and that is the right decision, but I cant wait to have a baby. Last night we went to Diamond Center, and we looked at the puppies. They had a whole bunch of German Shepards. Anyway, we went to Baby Gap to look for clothes for Baby Turd and I found this fuzzy little outfit with ears on the hood and the little fettsies looked like paws, and i looked at Matthew and ws like "You knopw we can pack this away. My baby needs to have this." And he didnt laugh at me. He said I could if I wanted to, so I did. Am I nuts? Probably. Oh, well. You can all know that we are not having a baby, but it isnt far away.

Friday, October 15, 2004

Parking pass Nazis

They took my parking pass away last night. they told me that there was almost $400 owed on it. That means they havent been paying it since January. Well, lets see since I was starting my last semster of college at the UofI on January and since that particular university is located in IOWA, then it is not my problem that it hasnt been paid. I have only had it since the middle of August. And I had a hand full of pay stub that say that I HAVE paid for it since I recieved it. But Lori puts all of the passes on the store credit card and the Parking authority lady told me that my card was not on the list. So the money from my paycheck is where, if it hasnt been paying for my card? We'll get is sorted out. Worse case scenio is that I will have to pay for parking on Sunday. Boo. But Arlene is going to call me as soon as Lori calls her. But I know Lori so That may be awhile. Hopefully she'll be on the ball today. HA. Stupid parking Pass Nazis.

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

Moose 911

I am getting so sick of these political volunteers who are in the skywalk everytime i go to work. "Re you in favor of Propisition2?" Everyday. For those of you NOT up on Alaska politics prop 2 is the bills that is up for vote that would legalize marijuana in the AK. You could have like 2 grams or something like that. Ug, and they keep asking me. I'm like" I dont vote in Alaska". Which is a lie but I dont care. Then there are the Knowles people. They are up there too. Evacuate my skywalk, leaches!

So in other news I almost hit a moose last night. Well, kinda. I saw it about ten feet in front of us on the highway. I was in the far right lane and the other person was ion the far left lane with the moose. They really must not have seen it, cuz they were not slowing down at all. I was trying to yell out the window at them "There's a moose! there's a moose!!!!!" Cuz you dont want to honk and make them look towards YOU at not at the moose. I swear they were only 2 feet from the thing when they slowed down. Now moose dont move for you. You have to move for them. But this one must have gotten scared and ran across the lanes towards my truck. I was ready though and it ran at my truck but i didnt hit it. My heart was beating pretty fast though. It was relatively small. In proportion to other moose that is. I mean it would have killed me, but it didnt have a rack so it was huge like the big bulls around here. A little Alaskan exictement for yall.

Other than that all is the same. Work is getting more stressful. We have AFN coming up, which is the Alaskan Federation of Natives, they have a conventuion in Anchorage every year. They come in from all the little villages inland and spend hella money in the downtown. Millions. So we are gonna be swamped. And then Halloween and we are having a little costume party cuz they open the mallup for trick or treaters so they have a safe warm place to get cany. Then we decorate for Christmas and have our anniversary sale where we put the whole store on 25% off. I wont be here for that. We will be in Orlando. I'm a bit disappointed cuz we have the store chrismas party that Saturday the 4th and we get all dressed up to the nines. In your fanciest dress. :( But its Matt's birthday so I will be with him. Then it is CHristmas time! God, time is going to fly. Whichis good cuz then I am closer to comeing home. We should be home in March. I cant wait. A lot to get through between then and now...

Tuesday, October 05, 2004


I always thought that being an adult was going to be different. I thought that I would FEEL different. I was always scared to be a "grown up". I thought that I would feel differently. You know how people always ask about how it feels to be your age, like, "So, how does it feel to be 22?" And the answer is always the same. "Feels the same as last year." I feel the same. What was supposed to change? I dont feel like a grown up. I have to pay my own bills. And I have a real job. And I have graduated from college. And I am MARRIED. I dont feel like a wife. I feel like me. Shouldnt I feel differently? I dont know, I was just driving home from work today and I felt like I was home. But I'm not home. I felt betrayed, almost. Like Anchorage has snuck up on me and... I dont know. Snuck on me pretending to be home. Iowa is home. And I feel like I am betraying it. I feel comfortable here. I like it here. I could stay here. I would have issues on being soooo far from Iowa, but I could. Matthew would sooner poke hios eyes out and cut off his hands than stay here. I know where we are going. But I have made a life here. I dont want to pick up and start all over again. What will I do? It was so hard to start over here. I was so alone and I had no friends. Now I have Rohni and I am so sick of saying good-bye to all these people that I love. On the flip side, i dont have to wait 6 months to see Matt only to watch him get back onto the plane a week later. That was tearing me apart.

No, I do feel feel more grown up. I moved from my high school years to my college years and that was tough too. But I had Kate and she made it so much easier. I moved from my college years to the beginning of my married years and i have Matt, which makes everything better. And now I have Rohni. ANd I guess when we move to Florida, I will still have Matt ane I will once again find a new best friend. And we will come HOME to Iowa for the holidays so my babies will see snow. And when we leave, Anchorage will be my home just like Wilton is my home and Iowa City is my home. Then Orlando will be my home and I can have a house. With a back yard and a morgage and a swingset with a sandbox so my kids can build sand cities, just like we did. And eat rhubarb and jump off the slide cuz it gave us the power to fly.

I wouldnt trade all the creeks, and hay bales, and snow forts, and mountain climbing, and swimming pools made out of calf water tanks, and playhouses on stilts, and weinie roasts and lightening bugs, and dandilion bouquets, and hay mows, and bug bites, and thunderstorms, and go-carts and bruises, and fights, and sweet corn and kittens for anything in this world. I know where home is. It is everywhere I go. And I know how it fels to be a grown up. It feels wonderful becuase I can look back and know that am the luckiest person in this whole world, becuase of all of those things and a billion more.

Being an adult feels pretty damn good.

Monday, October 04, 2004


This blog has a rating of PG-13. Paremtal discretion is advised.

All right, so I was leaving work last night. Wait no, I'll start somewhere else. Ok so Lori and Ralph are an item. They have been, I've known this for a long time. But when they are at work it is always strictly buisness. Well, Lori called Ralph in yesterday to us move some make up racks. (They were mega heavy) So I was the last to leave, or so I thought. When I went to shut the lights off, Lori's door to her office was open. That door should never be open, but I thought I was the last person in the store. So I knocked to see if anyone was there. Well, they must not have heard me, and they must have thought that THEY were the last ones to leave the store. They werent actually haveing sex, but you get the picture. Now I am warped. I imagine it to be a lot like walking in on your parents. You know that the have sex, but you dont ever want to think about it. You are better to assume that they dont. Ignorance is bliss. Now I cant stop thinking about it. And I have to work with both of them today. I dont think they saw me, but I sure as hell, saw them. AHHHHHH!!! I must think of something else. It'll be fine. I will get through this.

Saturday, September 25, 2004


Yep, that is what I said. Today it has started snowing. This is the earliest it has started in a long time, or so I have been told. Matthew wants me to clean today. I hate cleaning. I want to crwl into bed and take a nap so I can fight off this cold. Oh well. He says I have to have it done by tonight if I want to go bowling. So I guess i should statr. Just thought I would let you know that if ANYONE complains about the weather, then tell them to shut up cuz it could be snowing. And that will be told to you if I hear one person coplian to me about the weather.

Friday, September 24, 2004

Truely Outregeous

So I have done absolutely nothing today except paint my fingernails and watch Jem. A successful day off I think. I never realized how much I really loved that TV show. Sitting down and watching it just brings all these memories. like this one episode about Father's day ad Kimber gets bucked off the horse. I remember sitting in the kitchen on one of our pleather like brown stools and eating Fruity Pebbles. These images flash in my head of what I was doing when I was watchin this caroon before school. Memories are such facinating things. I should be cleaning or something but I realy dont fel like it. I will do it tomorrow. I dont want to do it today. i feel like taking a nap. LOL. Doing so much of nothing has worn me out!

Thursday, September 23, 2004


I got Jem in the mail yeterday. It came fast! And I got a little Patty o'Green doll . It came with Lucky, her Sprite, and his belly lights up and there is a DVD with a couple of episodes on it. I havent decided if I want to open it or not. I almost want mom to unpack my big Patty O'Green doll and send it to me. :) Ah, the security of childhood.

For those of you who may not know what I am talking about Patty O'Green is from Rainbow Brite, DUH!

Old habits die hard

So I have never had a job where I get in trouble for working too hard. Rohni and I got talked to again because we too much of the work at the store. Well, THAT is a twist. Apparently, we are not delegaing tasks well enough (or at all for that matter) and we need to stop doing it all ourselves. What they dont understand is that we have a crew of girls who, dont get me wrong they are a sweet bunch of girls, but they are not the brightest. And the things that Rohni and I do are just a bit too much for them. Well, it;s all in the training, so says Ralph. Ok, so now I am a babysitter. It would be faster if I do it and it is done right the first time so that I dont have to tellthem to do t and then have them do it wrong cuz they either didnt understand what I said or they didnt listen, and then I have to end up doing it all over and fixing what they screw up. Cant I just do it and then it will be done and I dont have to clean up after them? SO we are going to sit down and decide what each of the girls are going to be responsible for and Rohni and I can start being managers instead of highly paid employees. Easier sadi than done but we are going to try it their way but I garuntee that it will be back to this is a couple of weeks and we will find ourselves once again being yelled at for doing too much work. Whatever. I am just getting so stressed out. I can feel myself regressing to old ways of dealing with work issues, and we all know how well I handle stress. Poor Matt. He has kind been taing the brunt of it lately. I've been real short with him lately. I fell bad. I apologized to him today. i try not to take it out on him. I really do. But I am back to eating once a day cuz I just dont have time to eat and I am not sleep ing at night because I am constantly thinking about stuf I have to do tomorrow. I need to watch it cuz I know that I have to be more aware of my blood sugar. It was 86 again the other day. I am gong to die. I am going to go into a coma or something. I just dont have time to eat. You know I I think tht whole thing about your body feeding off itself in the state of starvation is false cuz I should have consumed myself by now. LOL. Well I should go to bed. Matt has that cough back that he had at the beginning of the year, so I am going to sleep soooo well the next few days. At least this time he ist gonna wait a month and a half before goin to the doctor.

Saturday, September 18, 2004

new phones

Matthew and I went and got new cell phones today. We got matching camera flip phones. I bought his phone so I think I shall call it his birthday present. Since he has ALWAYS wanted a flip phone. He watched 13 Going on Thirty with me last night. That was nice. It was a cute movie and it was nice to watch something other than a lot of people getting killed. Of course we also watched Man on Fire and Godsend, but he watched my movie and that is all I care about.

Oh, and Amanda, you can go to Amazon and preorder Rainbow Brite. That's where I got it from.
And Nicole, You are just WAY too young to even know what we are talking about or why we are so obsessed.

Friday, September 17, 2004

I love

I have now ordered Jem! Season 3 on DVD. I cannot wait for it to arrive. I have also preordered Rainbow Brite and the Star Stealers on DVD. Because I love them, and I want them. I will have them to be mine. And Matthew will sit down and watch them as I sat and watched Alf. No, prolly not cuz he will whine and I will say, "no, its ok, you dont have to watch it. I will watch them later." Which is a bald faced lie, he does need to watch them but I tell hi he doesnt because he should know that it wouldnt hurt to sit down and watch one or two, just to make me happy. Is everyone else like this? Anyway, I will be getting those two things regardless of whether or not he will end up watching them with me. :)

Monday, September 13, 2004


OK so I am still HELLA PISSED off. wE ORDERED espn GamePlan on PPV cuz one of the games they were showing was the Iowa/Iowa State game. But what it is is you pay $20 and you get all the college games that were played that day. ESPN blocked out the Iowa game for reasons unknown and so we paid $20 for a game we didnt even get to watch. i hate AK and ESPN and they have pissed me off.

Friday, September 10, 2004

swap watches?

Lori brought us back more presents from the Vegas show she just got back from. She said it was really high end so she didnt get very much stuff. They would only accept cash. But anyway, one of the things that she DID get are watches. But not just anywatches, snap bracelet watches. Yes, they have combined a swatch with a anap bracelet. She said everyone dwn there was buying them. Say hello to the next big thing. they are really cute and there are a ton of different ones. SO she gave her management one. Mine is pink. it is so cute. There is a blue one I want pretty bad too. I love my job.

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Just a reminder

I just thought that I would remind all of you that the wedding pictures website is going to expire soon so if you want to order some prints you have a limited time to do so. Otherwise you wiil have to contact Linda Moore directly.

user name: Rose
password: 5233

Monday, September 06, 2004

My second day at the track.

Today was a long freakin day. But we had fun. We went to watch the drag races. This is the last race day of the season. It was fun to watch all of those cars. There were a lot of Camero SS, a few Mustangs and, my favorite, the '66 VW Bug. Man, that thing could move! The fastest was 177mph, in a BUG! Then there was one car that went 210 mph. It was insane! There was a crash. The driver took a hard left, we dont know if he lost control or if there was a problem with his car, but him and his car hit the guardrail at 113 mph and crashed in the woods and burst into flames. The driver was fine and walked away from his car with some bruises. Amazing. Then there were the motorcyles. There was this modified nitro Harley. OMG, it flew like in the 170-180 range. The other moto9rcycles went around130-140 mph. I cant even imagine going that fast on a motorcyle. We decided that from now on we will only go to one race track in a weekend cuz two is way too hard on the bum. But it ws nice to be able to enjoy this weekend outside. We couldnt have had better weather. It was football weather. Big fluffy white clouds. Sunshine and just a little nip in the breeze to make a sweatshirt comfortable. It felt like I should be watchin black and gold instead of fast cars, but its a trade off. I imagine we will go more often next summer. But I am going to go eat now and prbably stand for the next 4 hours cuz my butt it soooo sick of sitting!

The races

We had a pretty good time yesterday. We3 went to Wasilla to watch Mitch race. She is really good. She's a regional champion. The legend cars are fun to watch. They are a lot smaller than I had pictured. I dont know how to explain them, if you have never seen a legend car. I guess the best thing I can think of is a cross between a '34 Ford Coupe and a go-cart. They are really small but have the body of an old timey car. They run on 1200 cc Yamaha motors. Its fun to watch. Today we are going back to watch the drag races. Brian loves the drags and he drag races his truck sometimes so we re going to go watch those today. We went to TGI Fridays last night for supper after the races. Oh, they are here so I had better go.

Saturday, September 04, 2004

Alaska State Fair and ALF

Matthew's mom bought him ALF season one on DVD. I thought I had him talked into watching it on Monday when i was at work because Im not a huge ALF fan, but it makes hm happy, so he is watching it now. But its ok cuz I am tired anyway and prolly gonna just go to bed. We went to the fair today and we are going to the races tomorrow. So I should get some sleep. I need to shower to get all the gross fair germs off me. I enjoy fairs and all but you always feel so dingy and gross after you go. Or at least I do. But I had a couple corn dogs and a funnel cake so all is well. I'm set for the next five years. Thats how often I can eat those stupid piles of fried dough. I wanted an ice cream cone. I still do actually. Well, truth be told I have been having the WORST cravings for a steak burrito from Panchero's. I tell you what, when we come home I am going to have 18 of the things. I want one so bad. ANd I miss Bruegger's. I havent found a suitable replacement for those either. But I should go attend to Matthew. His tummy hurts. Whats good for a tummy ache? I dont remember.

Hello there

Im waiting for Matthew to get home and for Rohni to call We are supposed to go to the fair today. I hope we still can goo. There was a problem with one of the orders we did this week at work and it didnt come yesterday, like it is supposed to. And it is once again all ecause of my friend Monique. I swear to high heaven that she has it out for our store. Anyway, tomorrow we are going to go watch Mitch race. Oh, I heard him pull up. I had better go help him.

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

Yes, i am still alive

I have had emails from a surprising number of you, conserned about what was wrong of if I was still alive. I have just been busy and I apologize. We have had a lot going on.

Matthew was booted from the William Tell team because the AF is stupid. After they picke the team, the rules changed and all the members of the team have to be from the same unit, the 19th. So Matthew and the guy from the 12th cant do it anymore. He has been working with the team this past week to get the new guys trainedm. He didnt really want to do it in the first place bt then a part of him wanted to see if he could do it. If the team was good enough. Stupid AF. He is all lonely now cuz his friends all left this week on TDY. So none of his boys are around. I think he is going through Smith withdrawl. I know he misses hm, but he doesnt ever say it.

Last Saturday we went over to Rohni and Brian's house. We had pizza and played cards. Matthew and Brian got along really well. It was fun. We were laughing all night. He is still laughing about some of the stuff. The four of us are going to go to the fair on Saturday. That should be fun. Its nice to have another couple to do things with istead of the guys all the time. I love them, but I need a little estrogen boost when they leave. Which all even out I suppose since I work in a store full of girls.

Work is work. Got dramam goin on like always. My assisant started this week. So hopefully I wont be puuting in such long hours and working all the time. We had a little management meeting. Poor Ralph is the only guy in our management circle and me, Rohni, Mitch AND lori all seem to be on the same cycle. God, help that man, cuz you can tell! LOL. ANyway, I need to get ready for work. Thought I would check in.

Thursday, August 26, 2004

The cows are not what they seem

So Darkwing Duck is on at noon here on Toon Disney, and That is about the time I sit down to put on my shoes so I usually watch it. Nothing brings back memories of my sister quite like Darkwing Duck. Today is the Twin Beaks episode. I have been waiting oh so impatiently for this particular episode because we loved it so much. Or I did cuz of the cows, but I remember it as we. "Zeek, get the diesel fuel" Ah, childhood. Well, actually that was adolesence wasnt it? Either way... The cows are not what they seem....

Busy Week

Yesterday we had buisness meetings ALL day so I worked a fabulous 12.75 hour day. It was great. It actually went really fast. Which surprised me. Oh, I havent told you guys yet, but Lori told Rohnie and I that we work too hard. So she is hiring us assisants. Yes, Emily rose now has an assisant. I LOVE THIS JOB. I have surpessed my car payment in what I make in comission so I do not have to stress about that. I seriously do not want to leave this job. Ever.I love my new car. I love my husband. I could go on forever! Rohnie and I got our official titles yesterday too. She is Master Overload and I am Her royal Highness the Underload. And believe it or not we didnt choose overlord and underload, but we did add the rest. :) Matt and I are going to go over to Rohnie and Brian's house on Saturday to play cards. Then next week the four of us are going to go to the fair. I have to get ready for work now but I thought I would check in.

Monday, August 23, 2004

Back to Work

Today it was back to work. Usually I would dread this day, but I didnt mind going back. I guess thats what happens when you dont hate your job. I cried a little this morning cuz the house was empty when I got up. No one was there. I made a whloe pot of coffee. Oops. I really had to pee later. Anyway, back to work.I got more done today then any of the other girls got done in the time I was gone. SO I made another good impression. The day went fast. ANd Ralph told me that so far I have earned $100 in comission and I even missed a week. Doing pretty good. If I am really good, I can make my car payments in my commission alone. Wouldnt that be nice? oh, poo, I was gonna take some pics of it so y'all could see it, but I forgot. Oh, well I will do it soon. I also got my parking pass today. I wish it would have been nice to have it when mom and dad were here cuz we parked downtown a lot, but oh, well if wishes were pennies we'd all be rich. Anyway, I was forced to get it since JC Penny's ramp caught on to their stupidity and extended their hours to 10 instead of 9, it would cost $6.75 a day to park there. ANd it is $6.00 for the 5th Ave ramp. thats $30 a week. So for $60 a month I got a pass. its better than spending minimum of $120 a month in parking. Plus I can use it everytme I park downtown.So in the end it was a wise move.

Back to school shopping has started up in full force this week. I think they start next Monday. So we have been pretty busy. I was in Wal-Mart the other day buying stuff for my truck and I felt this overwhelming need to buy school supplies. This is the first time since I was two that I havent needed to get stuff for school. It is a weird feeling. That is a 20 year ritual. Crazy. Welp, I could go on forever but I should join my husn=band in bed before he thinks my boyfriend came over. LOL.

Sunday, August 22, 2004

The fastest week ever

A week has come and gone already. Time is so short whenever you wish it would last forever. We just dropped mom and dad off at the airport. What a week it has been. We picked them up on Monday after mad cleaning. They were tired since it was about midnight their time, but we took them to eat anyway cuz we were hungry. LOL. I was a bit upset because there was so much smoke from the "controlled burning" that you couldnt even see the mountains. Ok, I was a little more than a little upset. I was very upset. I really hoped that it wouldnt stay this way the whole week.

Tuesday we went around the base and I showed them our fishing spots and the BX and the commissary. Oh, and Monday I got a call that my kitchen table was in so we went and picked that up. I was so happy. We went and rented them a car. Want to know what they got? Lew will never forgive them. A little red Cavalier. Yes, my father drove a Chevy car. Though in his defense I think it was under protest since it was really the only thing available and worth driving. Tuesday was a laid back day. No big excursions. I took them to my mall and showed them where I worked and they got to meet Mitch and Rohnie and mom met Lori and Ralph. We went to the Sourdough Mining Company for supper and it was sooo good. And Matthew had Teryaki Steak tips. I was so proud of him!

Wednesday, Mom made breakfast and we ate at my new table. It was nice. I drove them down to Seward. I love that drive. It is so beautiful. We went to the Sea Life Center to see Matts octopus. We had a nice lunch at a portside resturant. Mom wanted some chowder. Does anyone know what makes a soup a chowder and not a soup? That was the topic of discussion. So if anyone knows, please share. Then we went to Exit Glacier cuz you can't not go. It has changed so much since I was there last year. You cant walk up close to it anymore cause the water shifted and you cant cross it anymore. And one of the trails (the short one) is now too flooded to go up. It still gets me that those things are moving. Dad drove hoe cuz I was tired. We decided just to have pizza and watch the Olympics. It was a nice day.

Thursday... What did we do on Thursday? Oh, yes, we went shopping. Mom and I did. Dad went to a movie that me and mom wouldnt have been able to watch. One of those IMAX sort of things. We just get too sick. SO we went shopping. JC Penny's mostly. It was my birthday present. Then we checked out some of the cruises. But they were a bit much for what they were I guess. You know I dont remeber what we did for supper. This might have been th sourdough night. I dont remember now. Wow, I cant recall. Anyway, we ate and then watched the Olympics and went to bed.

Friday, was mom and dad day cuz I wasnt feeling too great. I had a headache and I ached so bad. it really sucked. I think it had something to do with the weather change cuz it had finally rained. Which was womderful cuz the smoke was gone too! You could see the mountains again! So they went to the Heritage Center. I stayed home and slept. They watched the Butterfly Effect while i was asleep. When I woke up it was time to go car shopping. THAT was fun. Ha. I thought I had a headache BEFORE! We found a couple of prosects. there was one at the Lemon lot but the guy must be on vacation cuz he never called us back. So it was off to the dealerships. Al out of our league I tell you what. We called it a night after not finding anything and my blood sugar was dropping so we had to go get food. We went back to Red Robin. Man, that place is so good. Yum. Mom and I picked out the wedding pics for our album. Then more Olympics and off to bed.

Saturday, dad had booked a flight on a sightseeing tour that took you to Mt. McKinley. So mom made pancakes since Matthew was there nad we had a big breakfast. Then we went to the flightseeing place. When we got there they said it was cloud covered and you couldnt see. So we went on one that went over the Chugach mountains over to Prince William Sound. If you ever do anything in your life do this. It was beyond words and pictures dont do the experience justice but you can see them anyway. It was just awesome to see all the glaciers and everything. wow. After that it was time for more car shopping. We went back to some of the places we thought there were possibilities and they werent even close to what we could afford. So Matthew said we should go try the Lemon Lot again. We looked around for a bit and there was this older model Chevy Blazer. I was ify about it cuz it was older but it seemed nice. it started to grow on me cuz it had possibilities. So we called the owner who was a Chief Parker.

Matt thought the name sounded familiar. He got a hold of him and he agreed to come down and bring us the keys. He told us about the truck and stuff and Matt asked him what he did cuz his name sounded familiar to him. Welp, turns out that Chief Parker is the Chief of Maintance which means when Matthew works mantance, he works for him. So that was quite a coincidence. Chief Parker thought Matthew's name was familiar too, even though he has 2500 people (his words, not necessarily accurate) who work for him and he was trying to figure out the name. Matthew told him that he got the William Tell thing and he instantly knew who he was cuz he helped pick the team. So they bonded a little there. I test drove it and it rides really nice and has all new tires and brake pads. I didnt really need to test drive it cuz I already knew I wanted it. For $3500, it wasnt gonna get much better. So we were waiting for him to leave, after telling him we'd take it, cuz mom wanted a pic of me withit and he rolled down his window and asked me if I wanted to drive it home. I couldnt believe it cuz we werent gonna have the money till Tuesday. I asked him if he was sure and he goes, "Yeah, I know where your husband works" So I got to take it home!

We came back with my new car and had supper here. Mom and dad went to Fred Myer to get some coffee and Fruit and Matt and I started up the grill. We had grilled steak and ahmburgers, fruit salad, CHeese mashed potatos, that Matthew made, and green beans. We were stuffed. And we had Moose Tracks ice cream for dessert. And watched the Olympics. Matthew had a couple illegal beers with mom and dad. It was a very good day.

This morning we went to Denny's for breakfast. Then we took them to the airport. Mom cried. I almost did. I could feel it coming, but i didnt. it was hard not to, but I think I am getting better at these good-bye things. It will hit me later. I had a nice week. I remember ed how much I missed having my mommy around though. I knew that would happen. But it was nice to have them see where we live and have them share a little bit of my life up here. And they can rest better knowing that I am settled in here and that it is a nice place to be. ANd i gave them a chance of a lifetime to come up here and spend some time. I think mom is already planning stuff for the next trip up. Maybe Lew or Manda can come with next time. Maybe.

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Sunday, August 15, 2004

Mommy and Daddy

I feel like I should have more done before tomorrow. I nee to do laundry the worst though but I have to get more quarters. Rohnie said I could do it at her house and any other time I would have taken her up on it but I need to do other stuff too. I cant believe they are gonna be here tomorrow. I hope the sun comes back out tomorrow. It has been sunny all week and today it was a little overcast. I may not be able to post much this week since mom and dad will be sleeping in the computer room. But we iwwill take lots of pictures!

Saturday, August 14, 2004

I saw grandpa last night

Ok this might seem really wierd to some of you but I think grandpa came to me last inmy dream. We were at my wedding only the whole thing was outside in this c herrty tree orchard and it was all in bloom and other than that everything was the same. I was about to go down the aisle and I told amanda to let down my train and there he was. He looked just like I remember him, so strong and laughing. He was weaing a yellow jacketAnd he picked me up and was spinning around with me up in the air and I was just laughing and squealing and I was so happy because he was there. And everything was right, noth8ing could have been better like everyone was in their place.

And I cried in my sleep. I hate when i do that but at least it was a good cry for once.

To dream that you are getting married to your current spouse again, represents your wedded bliss and happiness. It highlights your strong commitment to each other. It may also signify a new phase (such as parenthood) that you are entering in your life.

The color yellow has both positive and negative connotations. If the dream is a pleasant one, then the color yellow is symbolic of intellect, energy, agility, happiness, harmony, and wisdom.

To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life

To feel peace in your dream, indicates an end or a resolution to an emotional issue or inner conflict. It may signal and end of a cycle and the pause before the beginning of a new endeavor. It also suggest that you have reached a new level of stability and calmness.

To dream of passing through a blossoming orchard, signifies a happy home life, longevity, faithfulness, and loyalty.

Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection, kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color.

To see or wear a jacket in your dream, represents the image that you want to present and project to the outside world. Alternatively, it symbolizes your protective and defensive persona. You tend to distant your feelings and as a result, you may be isolating yourself. Consider also the color, appearance, and type of jacket for additional significance.

Friday, August 13, 2004

You know under normal circumstances I would be upset that people I thought were my friends were saying such horrible things about me, but you know what I dont even really care anymore. People can say what they want about me. I am not there to defend myself so I am an easy target. I love my husband and he loves me. We have a good life here and I am not looking back. I have moved on. I love my life here and I am happy, for the first time in my life, I am happy. I have a nice home, and a good job that I love and a husband that adores me. So say whatever you want about me, you cant touch me on my cloud. Someday, I hope that you find your cloud too. Maybe then you will see that there is so much more out there. Any mistakes I have made in my life have made me a better person because I learned from them. That is what mistakes are for. They are not to hold against people or to throw back at them in spite. So I say to all those people, move on with your life too. This is the last I will speak of this situation. Say whatever you want, because I have turned my back on you. It is easier to stab me that way. So stab away, because with every cut you make you only hurt yourself, not me. I have no tears to cry for you. I have no anger to waste on you.

And for those of you who have no idea what I am talking about right now, then this does not apply to you and you should disregard this blog.

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Hooray for drama- Blow Out eat your ratings!

I live in a soap opera, I swear. We need to just document everything that goes on in our salon. So here is the latest:

Our owner has had a really tough year. She found out tht for the last ten years her (now) ex-husband was stealing money from her right from under her nose. She owns five buisnesses and he would just kinda help himself. So she divorced him (that was the REALLY short version of why they split) Now he is using her buisnesses as collateral to buy high ticket items. For example he put Max Muscle (our brother store) up so he could buy a new boat. He went on a $60,000 trip to Reno on her money. SHe almost lost one of her buisnesses because of him. So anyway, sheis basically paying him to go away. He was in the store today trying to start shit with our GM who happens to be dating her now. They are all up in each othe's faces and the ex is accusing my GM of stealing his wife when really he didnt cuz they didnt get together until later, after the divorce. This GM is the same one who looks ,like Ice-T. So that got him all riled up and so we had to break that all apart.

Then one of the managers slept with one of the stylists last year ans ahe had a baby and last week there ws an accident and the baby suffocated in it's sleep. So there is all of that going on. Then there is Kateland who we technically fired today but we arent telling her until next week so I can have my vacation when mom and dad get up here.

There has got to be money in the TV world for my life right now. I swear. But on the upsie mom and dad will be here in a couple of days and I will get to go on vacation and love it. But I should go to bed in case they call me in to work early again!

A stern talkin to and a well needed vent

So I had to have a talk with one of the girls at work. She used to do drugs when she was young and i think she fried some brain cells or something cuz she just doesnt get it! LOL. Man, I have had to take disiplinary actions with employees before, but she was something else. She truly believed she wasnt doing anything wrong, and no matter how many times I explained it to her it just did not sink in. I couldnt believe it. This girl had an excuse ready for everything i threw at her. I even asked her about something that she didnt even do and she had an excuse for that one too. If nothing else she can think 0n her feet, thats for sure. I mean she is a sweet girl, but she cant keep doing the stuff she's doing, which for confidentiality reasons, I am not going to get into, but how do I get her to stop if she doesnt think that she is doing anything she shouldnt be doing. It will be a trial. I am sure that this will not be the last time that we have a little chat. I am sure.

Anyway, I had a shitty day today, excuse my language. I was so busy. I worked 9 straight hours without stopping. No break, I didnt even get t eat anything ALL day. Nothing. And most of us know what a joy I am when I am hungry! I didnt get home until 10. ANd the store closes at 9! ANyway, Mark, one of our stylists, was doing a cyberimaging consulatation with a client and she decided that she want a cut, color and a highlight sfter seeing the pictures. He didnt get done with them until like 9:30. He spent four hours working with this girl. Her total should have been $235 but he only charged her $200 and they didnt even tip him! 4 hours of work and no tip! I was disgusted! He didnt take any other clients cause he was working with her. Granted it was a $200 service but he should have charged her $300. That was the amount of work he put in to it. So that ticked me off.

We have a new rule now that if the stylists have to stay late then we have to stay late cuz one of our stylists is a baby fat crybaby. She always finds stuff to complain about and that is her new one. So when our store closes at 9 and they still have a client in the salon, we cant just ring them out and close out the registers we have to wait for them then they get to go home while we ring them up and balance the last till and stuff. How is that fair? That may be changing cuz I dont like that at all.

And I had to do all the ordering by myself cuz Rohnie had to fly back to Idaho this week for a court day cuz her ex husband is a moron. But that is an entire other story. So I am really nervous because Jerri, one of our reps, and I went through all our stock and ordered enough to fill our shelves. it was a $2719 order. That is alot of money, but it had to be done, so we will see how Lori reacts to that! But our other sales rep is really starting to piss me off because we gave her company sole rights to our OPI nail polish order which is buqu bucks for their company, well she isnt getting me my polish orders. She was supposed to bring them to me on Thursday so i would have them for the weekend and she did not show up until today and she didnt even bring the damn polishes! And this is the third time she has done this to us. I want to give the rights back to Jerri cuz at last I know she will give me what I need! I havent even seen the new catalog for CHristmas and we need to be getting our CHristmas order in soon here. Who brought it long with her today even though I cant order it from her? Yep, Jerri. She even hd sample bottles so I could see the new colors for the holiday season. Does monique do that, no, she doesnt even bring me polishes that I ordered and paid for! I am so aggrivated! I JUST WANT MY POLISH ORDER!!!!

And on top of all of that, I broke my shoe today. My favorite shoes, the chunky black ones that have the ring in them like they are pierced, yeah broke the heel, cant wear them anymore, they are beyond repair. I almost cried. Do you know how hard it is to find a cute pair of chunky black tie shoes that you can wear with pants AND a skirt? It was just the topper to my day. I am surprised I didnt break a nail. I would probably have really actually cried then.

BUT I still love my job. Figure that one out.

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

I'm getting WAY too into this

Ok, I cant resist. This is the reigning Mrs. Alaska. I met her today. Her name is Whitney. You should see the rock she calls a wedding ring! Its huge! Anyway here she is.

My friend Rachel, The Beauty Queen

Today I met the current Mrs. Alaska. Mitch is one of her consultants. Miotch let it slip that Rachel will be competing in the Miss Alaska pagent to go on to the Miss USA pagent. I'm so excited for her. If youwould like to see a picture of Rachel go to

She would be the one above Alaska. LOL. Now you see why she wins. She's so sweet! Anyway, I thought I would share that with you. Just cuz I love her and am excited for her to go to Miss USA.

Monday, August 09, 2004

One Minute Manicure

I have the best job ever. I get all this cool stuff cuz Lori just got back from the Vegas show and she brought back all this stuff for us to try and see if we like it and stuff like that. Amongst the goodies I have gotten is some Bed Head body lotion and body wash which is not available anywhere in Alaska yet, but we will be getting it! And I got to try this thing called the One Minute Manicure. This stuff is GREAT. If you see anywhere, but it. I dont care how much it is, trust me, it is worth it! It is SO fabulous. I even made Matthew try it, because I often force him to do girly things like that because he is my husband and I want to. (But he still wont let me paint his toe nails :( ) Anyway, even he said this stuff is awesome. We all know what kind of shape his hands are in after years of working on cars, airplanes and picking his fingers. He tried my One Minute Manicure and even he couldnt believe how soft his hands were. I am telling you, but it. If you would like I could get some for you and send it to you. Or you could call our store and buy it over the phone and we will ship it to you. I know I am going on about this but it is great stuff. Oh, and you know what else is awesome? Hempz lotion Great stuff. God, I love my job!

Sunday, August 08, 2004

I hate vampires

To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to it. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic for someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.

Fighting Vampires

The vampires in your dream may suggest that you are feeling drained of your life energy and autonomy. In dreaming that you are fighting these vampires, is a literal depiction of your daily struggles with keeping things in order. You may be suffering from exhaustion or feeling overwhelmed in some aspect of your domestic or personal life which explains the tiredness you feel when you wake up.


To dream that you are in terror, forewarns of disappointments and loss.

Friday, August 06, 2004

Busy day

I am very proud of myself. i have gotten a lot accomplished today. I went to work and picked up the $200 they owed me (long story) and then I opened a checking accouint with Wells Fargo ( the next stage) so I can deposit my pay checks in there. Then I went to the BX cause I wanted to buy my table, but they didnt have all the pieces. :( So they had to order mw one. I am rather disappointed because I wante to have it when mom and dad got here so in case we ate here some night they could have a table instead of having to eat in the living room. The is a chance that it will be here in time, but it is a small one! Oh well, at least I got it ordered. They could have sold me the floor model but there were some dings and stuff. If I am going use my money from my job that I worked very hard for then I am going to make sure that it is EXACTLY what I want. ANyway it is this adorable little kitchen nook. It will fit right under our windoe in the corner. Oh, it will be so nice to have a real table for meals. I should have gotten my nails filled while I was at the mall but i didnt. I will probably do that tomorrow since I have to be there anyway to get my hair hair cut. Today was my 30 day mark at work (has it been a month already?) so now I get my discount and free hair cuts and stuff like that. So tomorrow I am going to go and get my hair trimmed and colored. :). But I am going to go take a nap now. I thought it would be a great idea to stay up till 4 am watching movies. In case you are counting that is 7 am your time. I thought about calling mom since she would just be getting up for work, but I didnt. LOL. At least if I take a nap I can actually sleep with my husband who is snoring away right now. But I need to rest up cause we are going bowling tonight. Yes, we are going. :) K love you guys!

Setting the record straight

it has been brought to my attention that I do not praise Matthew enough on this. That I use it to vent and then he ends up sounding like a jerk and I am the victim. I have tried to assure this person from whom these concerns stem but they do not believe that you all do not think hi to be a jerk. Matthew is the farthest thing possible from being a jerk. And I dont want you to think that nor do I want you to think that is what I think. I have promised to share my feelings with him more than I have been. But I am still new at this whole sharing how I am really feeling thing. I just dont usually do that. But I am learning. And he is very patient with me, though sometimes more than others.

I believe that most of you realize that when I am expressing anger or frustration here i am doing so that I donot blow up at hi when I do talk to him about it. I find that it helps me to stay calm. We have been working through some things that have needed sorted out for some time now and we are becoming frustrated with each other, but that doesnt mean I love him any less. He is still the best thing that ever happened and I thank God every day that I was fortunate enough to find someone with whom to share my life. I do not take that for granted at all. I love my husband and he is good to me. All fights are two sided and you often dont hear both sides so take it all with a grain of salt.

Matthew brings me breakfast in bed, and rubs my feet when I get home from work. He makes me supper when I am hungry and lets me buy shoes even though he doesnt understand why I need ANOTHER pair of black shoes. He works hard to give us a good home and he is a good man. I dont want you to ever think anything else about him, because I dont.

Anyway I wanted to set that straight at the request of a certain someone and for myself too.

Monday, August 02, 2004

dreamin bout work again


To dream that you are at work, indicates that you are experiencing some anxiety about a current project or task. The dream may also be telling you that you need to "get back to work". Perhaps you have been slacking and need to pick up the pace.

To dream that you are at your former or past work, suggests that there is an old lesson that you need to learn and apply to your current situation.

To dream that you are hard at work, signifies success and merit. Alternatively, it may suggest anxieties about a current task or project. You may need to "get back to work" and stop procrastinating.

I am doing it again

Man I get two emails from Nina and karrie and I am ready to fly home. I miss them so much. I wish that I could clone them and have their copies up here with me,because I miss thm beyond words. It is like a peice of me is missing. A very mean, sacarstic, wonderful part. I cant wait to come home and see them again. Best friends are hard to find, and I really liked mine. Especially ones who share your love of making fun of people. I almost called Nina the other day until I ralized that it was four in the moring at home. Figured she wouldnt like that too much. I need to stop doing this to myself...

Friday, July 30, 2004

Friday night

Welp,, here it is Friday and I am sitting in the living room by myself watching Ron White on Comedy Central. We were supposed to go bowling tonight but Matt stayed up for 26 hours and diddnt want to go anymore. I know that it is not all his fault since he had to go to that interview thing today, but I was really looking forward to going bowling. I am really disappoiinted. I want to cry right now cuz I was so excited to actually go out and then he says that we arent going to go. Because he isnt 21.. And all the guys are. And I am. Well, yes, but that isnt why we are going. We are going because there was a time when we loved going bowling. We are going because you keep telling me that I cant keep sitting in the apartment and doing nothing. Well, the problem is that we only do things when it is him who wants to do them. I fI want to do something he makes me feel guilty for wanting to do it and then mopes around until I finally say fine and we go home. I go do his stuff with him. I went fishing with him all the time and I didnt complain. I went. I'm sorry he is not 21 but that doesnt mean that we cant go out with the guys and have fun anyway. I know he needs sleep. I know but it is starting to feel like we onlt do what he wants to do. We only go to the movies he wants to see. He was going to make me go see IRobot for my birthday and I didnt even want to see it. What kind of birthday movie is it when you never even wanted to see it?> I dont know how to approach him with this without hurting his feelings. I dont think he does it on purpose, but it treally bothers me. And its not like I get to spend a whole lot of time with him. SO I just feel like it should be spent doing something that we BOTH enjoy. Thats why I was so excited to go out tonight. Because I know that tomorrow no one will want to do anything because they went out tonight to go bowling. It happened LAST weekend. It is happening THIS weekend and in all actuality it will happen again NEXT weekend. I am just so bored with everything. It ws something new and fun that we havent done up here yet. Oh, well, we'll always have something to not go to next week.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

We have no food

ok we do have some food but i have to actually prepare it and I am just so absolutely drained when I get home from work that the last thing I want to do is to make food.  so we are going to go get food tomorrow.  I suppose I should see if  i can find a new pair of kahkis.  And we are going to clean and maybe get unpacked the rest of the way.  I need to get things organized since mom and dad will be here in like two weeks.  I cant believe its so close.  I am so excited but I havent even really had time to think about it.  my life is work now.  And Matthew.  
Laurie was ina much better mood today.  Yesterday was her first day back and she was just really stressed out.  She owns 4 buisnesses and one of them is just starting up  so I can see where she would be under a lot of stress.  and then she got in a huge fight with her ex-husband and it was total drama.  We, actually I work in the beauty industry now and it is ALL drama.   ANyway, she was on a rampage yesterday.  Nothing was right.  No matter what it was, it wasnt right.   But today she was back to being cool Loaurie and not uber bitch Laurie.  I founf out today that I work with two other beauty queens.  I told you Rachel was Miss Teen Alaska.  Well, no surprise here, Laurie is an ex-beauty queen and so is Mitch.  This is a whole new world here.  I almost wish I could stay.  I really like it.  Maybe that will have changed be the time we are set to leave but I like it so much.  And it has only been a month.  Wow.  Has it been a month already?  I believe that it has.  On the 6th it will be one month.  Man how time flies by.  Welp, I must go to bed or i will never want to get up to do laundry in the morning.

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Catch up

Welp, last night, well, today rather, Ma dream that I left him for another guy.  So now he is all paranoid about me leaving him.  If I was going to leave him I would have done a loooong time ago.  But since I have no plans on leaving him I am reaping the benefits of hisoia.  He is being extra sweet. So I wont leave.  He is such a dork sometimes. 

He also wants to get a shark.  They sell then at Wal-Mart.  It grsp to 8 feet long.  Yeah. where are we gonna put that? 

Work Note:  I might get to go to Vegas in Feburary for a Goldwell show.  We miggoto either a that or the Redken one.  They are both in Vegas.  So we will see about that.  I think it might be kinda fun.  But that is way in the future.  Ralph and Laurie came back today so all us managements have to start going tetings about hemerchandise and the new direction we are going to take the store.  It is all very exciting.  I am going to be a part of it.    So, Ralph came in to the store today to see how things are going.  I was wearing my khakis that I always used to wear at WM.  They have a couple of holes in the back pocket where they dcaught on a nail up be the service desk.. I never really thought anything of it.  Ralph said something about them before he left but I forgot about that when Iot dressed this morningHe  saw them today and he's like "Girl, those pants, how much would another pair oof those cost?" and he pulls out this wad of cash of of his pocket and was gonna give me some.  I'm ik"keep your money."  He's .like, 'this is how it works around here."  I'm thinking what you buy my clothes?  No.  I couldnt even take money from mom and dad when I couldnt afford to buy food!  I was NOY goingto accept his money.  I mean jeez they pay me to work there, I can buy some new pants the next time I m at WM.  I have just been wrking six days a week so I havent had time to go.  I didnt tell him that.  Maybe I should have.  Though I should be getting a nice little comission with this check.  I will use THAT to buy some new pants.  I was absolutely faberghasted.  Is that really how it works at some places?  I just accept money?  I dont know if it was some pay advance or what ut Itotally did not feel comfortable accepting that.  I know i must have turned red.  It was a veryuncomfortable situation.  What was more uncomfortable was the wad of hundreds he pulled out of his pocket.  Must be nice...

Sunday, July 25, 2004

Busy Weekend

We have made a lot of progress in putting our stuff away.  It is beginning to look like our home instead of an empty apartment.  The entertainment center is beautiful and oh so worth it.  I am responsible for putting the rest of it away.  But that is okay.  Did I mention that i got my license?  I think I did.  Oh, yeah I did. 

I'm getting so excited for mom and dad to get here.  I want to get the apt put together so when they get here it will be all ready and pretty and i am so excited cuz its our home!  And the bed is sooo great.  Matthew loves it.  He doesnt ever want to get out of it.  nd the chair will be the end of our marriage IF we couldnt both sit in it, but we can so it will be ok. 

I have caused some new wrinkles at work.  Not purposely.  Kateland is not happy with me because she thought that since Shannon was gone she would be the manager.  She made a comment the other day that if she was full time then SHE would be the evening manager.  Yep, I am making so many friends.  I cant wait till Rachel gets back.  She comes back on Tuesday. 

Matthew and I went to Dan and Ashley's wedding on Saturday.  It was really pretty.  They had it at the Green Lake Chalet.  Its a cute little cabin thingy right on the lake.  It made a pretty setting for the wedding.  There is a gazebo and they had a trellis with ivy and pink roses.  It was very pretty.  It is  the only wedding I have ever been to where the bride did a keg stand.  And DEFINATELY the only wedding where the MOTHER of the bride did a keg stand.  LOL.  It was a site to see!  But it was fun.  I enjoyed myself.  And I looked cute.  LOL.  Good thing my shoes came cuz my butterfly sandals looked PERFECT with my new little dress with my jean jacket.  I looked super cute.

Anyway, I need to put some stuff away and then go to bed. 

Friday, July 23, 2004


ok you can view the picturs at www.collages .com the user name is Rose and the password is 5233

A day of good news

Today has been a good day.  TMO delivered our stuff this morning.  Our living room is full of boxes.  We got the bed put together first.  It is so nice to have a real bed!  ANd my fridge is full of pictures which is the way it should be.  And we went to the DMV today.  I am the proud owner an an ALaska driver's license.  Yay for me.  Its pretty cool.  Y'all will prolly see it eventually.  Well, Matt and I are going to take a nap in our new bed but I thought i would let you know that we got all our stuff.  Oh yeah and the other thing is that mom got our wedding pics and they are somewhere online so I get to see those too.  I cant wait!  Once I know the address I will let you know.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Never more than we can handle?

This is Amanda's post, but I am borrowing it because she has a gift that I do not have.  I will change some of it, but it will make more sense when I do.

"The family now knows, so I’m free to discuss it.  Back in April, I (Amanda) posted the following: “Ever have one of those days where your entire life gets turned upside down and the one thing you counted on most to be your rock isn't? That was yesterday.” That April day, I got a phone call from my mom, saying that the doctor wanted to discuss the results of a routine blood test, and to bring someone with her.  “Bring someone with you” never bodes well.  The only person Mom could get a hold of was me, so I went.  She took the news better than I did:  Mom has leukemia.  The blood tests eventually confirmed what we suspected:  the type of leukemia she has is Chronic Lymphatic Leukemia (CLL), the same as Grandpa and Uncle Dan, who was diagnosed shortly after Grandpa’s death.  She is seeing the same oncologist as Uncle Dan, so he is familiar with both of their cases, since heredity seems to be an important factor.   It’s tough.  Remembering how Grandpa’s death affected me, I can only imagine how much it will multiply when I lose Mom.  And I can’t help but jump there.  There were so many medical advances even during the time Grandpa was sick.  But both Mom’s and Uncle Dan’s white counts are increasing at a faster rate than Grandpa’s did.  How do I live without my mom?  Even though I no longer call her as often, and she’s not the first person I call to share something, she is still one of the most important people in my life.  I can’t do it.  I can’t think about it.   There will be a time for that, later, when she’s sick more often, when she’s tired all the time, and when she starts wasting away like Grandpa did.  Most of the time, I am able to forget, because there’s not much to remind me.  It isn’t affecting her yet, and she still has as much energy as ever.  But every once in a while I’ll remember with a start, and my heart sinks and I hug her a little tighter and a little longer. "

I think about it a lot because I am not there.  I cant hug her.  I cant touch her and know that she is still here.  She didnt tell anyone cause she didnt want people to look at her differently.  I thing I know is that people do look at you differently.  I dont think that they can help it.  She didnt want people to focus on her being sick when they should focus on the joy of our marriage.  You never really accept this kind of thing.  I still have a hard time believing what it did to grandpa.  Sometimes I even have myself convinced that it was some horrible dream and he is still at home.  Safe healthy and the jovial man that I remember from my childhood.  But he was sick most of my entire life.  So my memories are few and faint from when he wasnt sick, but I cherish them.  And I will wish every day of my life that I was with my mom.  But I know that is noy what she wants.  She wantsd me to be here with Matthew, but that wont take away what I do not have.  More time with my mommy.

Monday, July 19, 2004


I dont remember if I mentioned that I love my job.  LOL.  No, I do.  I got my own key to the store yesterday.  Yes, that is right, two weeks into the job and they gave me a key to the shop.  Mitch also told me that I have to stay when Matt leaves.  I told her that would have to be discussed when the time comes!  LOL.  J/K.  Laurie (the owner) also own Max Musclle which is a body building type store.  She has a girl store and a boy store.  :) Anyway, we are co-sponsering a body building competition so we have all these body builders coming into the store to tan.  One gut was on the cover of July's Flex magazine.  He is HUGE.  His body provided the model for the Hulk movie.  Matthew is all up on getting a discount on supplements.  Yeah, like he is going to work out.  Maybe for like a week.  I am goint to go back to the DMV tomorrow.  For those of you who didnt know I failed my driver's test.  The first time ever.  I thought I could just go in and take it, but Alaska runs on a point system that I didnt know about.  Apparently moving violations are all assigned a point value and if you accumulate 12 points in 12 monthes you have to go to driver's school.  And I second guessed myself and overanalyzed a question.  I failed by one. You can only get four wrong and I got five.  So it's back tomorrow to try again.  Then off to work.  I'm doing some favors for them, pulling in some extra hours, so Mitch is gonna try to give me the whole week off when mom and dad are up here.  Less than a month.  I am starting to get nervous because so many good things are going on right now that something has got to go wrong here soon.  I have too many good things.  Unfortunately I'm afraid that the thing that is gonna give is Matthew.  That he will end having to go wherever it is they decide to go at the end of August.  But I'm gonna keep o n enjoying life and try not to think about everything that could go wrong.  But I need to go to bed.  Enjoy your day.

Sunday, July 18, 2004

Auntie Em

I am sooooooo excited!  I am going to be an aunt.  It almost makes me as happy as if it were me who was going to have a baby!  I cant quit smiling, I can only imagine how Laurie feels!  It is so exciting.  What a belated birthday present.  I can't wait.  Matthew says when it gets closer and we find a more accurate due date he's gonna take leave and we're gonna come home.  So we have a definate time that we are going to come home.  It gives me something to look forward to.  I think I needed something to look forward to.  Something to count down to.  Auntie Em, thats me.  LOL.

Saturday, July 17, 2004

Happy Birthday

Happy birthday to me,
happy birthday to me,
happy birthday dear Emily
happy birthday to me....
Another year has come and I dont know how next year can top this year.  I called mom and dad yesterday.  Dad aked me if I wanted to come home yet and my mouth said no.  I was shocked.  I know thats not what my head or my heart was saying.  I do want to come home.  I do.  I miss everyone so much.  But I said no.  Like it was silly for him to ask.  It wasnt at all.   But you know there are times that sneek into my being miserable and mess it all up.  Times when I look around and think this isnt so bad.  I have a nice little life here.  This isnt so bad.  You know I do have a nice little life here.  I am actually pretty happy expect for the sickening homesickness.  Huh, who would have thought homeSICKNESS would be sickening?  I'm so dense sometimes.  I have a good job.  I have a wonderful husband who thinks the sun rises and sets just for me.   I may have found that my future is in buisness.  There are only a few things missing.   People.  People who mean so much to me that I want to burst with love whenever I think about them.   People who made my life so rich for the last 22 years.  Thye paople with whom I have shared a million tears and countless laughs.  The people who made me what I am and who I am.  Time stops for no one.  It will keep moving  until it is no more.  And it is all we can do to keep up.  We dont know what it will bring to us, but we know it will not be more than we can bear.  So here is to a new year.  May it find us all with new hope, new laughs, and less tears.  May you be as blessed in your years as I have been in mine. 

Friday, July 16, 2004

Birthday Blues

Ok so you all knew that it was coming.  And so did I, but it just hit me today, really.  Tomorrow is my birthday.  I should be going to the Field House or Brother's cause that is what we did when it was somebody's birthday.  We would get pitchers of beer and dance the night away.  That what birthdays are for.  I know there is a bigger picture and all that, but bear with me while I wallow in self pity.  I am supposed to have a cake that my mommy made for me, with some childish character that I picked out, drawn oh so carefully in frosting.  I am suppposed to goto Peking with the fam and have chinese food.  And see Grandma laugh.  ANd Calvin run around like crazy. And see Cassie try to control her kids and Uncle Tim beam with pride at his grandchildren.  To see mom forget troubles for awhile and dad come in late but make it from work.  There is a system to how my life worked.  I miss that system.  I got a card from Grandma today.  I couldnt resist opening it.  There was a letter.  She told me about spending Grandpa's birthday with Rach.  HSe wrote "He would have been 75.  Grandpa loved birthdays."  So that is what started all of this.  Dont think that I take being with Matthew for granted or anything like that.   You all understand.  I am sure.    But we are going to go out for supper and go to a movie.  I dont know which one.  I, Robot most likely.  But I still havent seen Harry Potter.  So we will see.  Yep, happy birthday, Emily.  Quit whining.

Thursday, July 15, 2004

Wake up

Matthew woke me up this morning with roses. He said he was sorry and when he got out to the car he felt horrible for being so mean. I knew he would feel bad. He just isnt a person who can be mean. So all is well in our house again. and I promised to sit and watch Smackdown with him tonight when I came home. So we compromised and I got flowers. So now I shall go to work and hopefully my day will be as good as yesterday!

It's me again

So a couple quick notes on what;s up. Work is taking over my life. Here's the rundown. I have mentioned the spa thing which is part of it but a small part. I have also mentioned Shannon. Well, we fired Shannon today. First person I have actually fired. She is the last of the :bad" people. Apparently there was a time not so long ago where there were a lot of worthless people employed at our salon and Laurie (the owner) is revamping the staff in order to whip the place back into shape. It's gonna take a lot of work. SO Laurie brought in Mitch to take over for Ralph as general manager cuz Ralph got a recrd contract and is moving on. Oh and he posesses an uncanny resemblance to Ice-T. Anyway, She brought in Mitch and Rohnie and me. We are her managment staff. And she is hiring some new girls to work. One of them is Rachel. I love this girl to death! She is so pretty. She should be she is a former Miss Teen Alaska. While holding this title she traveled to Switzerland and killed the world record boar. Yes she is a boar killing beauty queen. So anyway, back to my point. Laurie and Ralph left today to go to Vegas for a hair show. Mitch is in Fairbanks cuz she has a race this weekend. And Rohnie is sicker than a dog. Chain of command puts me in charge of the store. It is my SECOND week. How great is that? So I have to work on my birthday, but only in the morning. What are you going to do?

Matthew is mad at me tonight because I got home from work and played on the computer instead of sitting on the couch with him. So when he left he was really cold. I have never seen the ice in his eyes like i did tonight. It was kinda scary. So we'll see what happens tomorrow when he gets home. If nothing else Ican hide at work. But i need to eat my supper and go to bed. i'm tired.

Monday, July 12, 2004

Dream 2

To dream that you are in a church, suggests that you are seeking for some spiritual enlightenment and guidance. You are looking to be uplifted in some way. Perhaps you have made some mistakes in the past which have set you back on your path toward your goals. With proper support, you will get on the right track again. Alternatively, it may also mean that you are questioning and debating your life path and where it is leading. You are reevaluating what you want to do.

To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that still need to be worked out with your mother.

To hear your mother cry in your dream, denotes some illness or affliction.

To see a faceless figure or person in your dream, indicates that you are still searching for your own identity and finding out who you are.

To see your childhood friend in your dream, signifies regression into your past where you had no responsibilities and things were much simpler and carefree. You may be wanting to escape the the pressures and stresses of adulthood. Consider the relationship you had with this friend and the lessons that were learned.

To see children in your dream, signifies your own childlike qualities or a retreat back to a childlike state. It is an extension of your inner child during a time of innocence, purity, simplicity, and a carefree attitude. You may be longing for the past and the chance to satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurtured.

Its been awhile

So today was pretty eventful. I am soooo tired. This morning Matthew had to be at work at ^am. Rob was gonna pick him up so he was waiting outside for him and along came a whole moose family. He came upstairs and woke me up so I could see them. Sure enough a momma, baby and daddy moose were all in our parking lot. I was pretty tired since I worked the night before and was heading to bed when Matt came back upsatirs cuz Rob hadnt showed up yet and he needed to be at work in ten minutes. SO I had to get dressed and try to wake up long enought to get him to work. I still had five hours before I had to be up and I wantedto make the most of those hours. He calls again at 10 cuz he has no way home so once again I had to get dressed and go get him. SO much for sleeping in. I havent decided if I want to slep in tomorrow or go get my nails done. I'll prolly sleep in. I know I will.
So you're all prolly wondering how the job is going. It is really going well. I really enjoy my job. I havent been able to say that for a long time. I have my problem person though. Her name is Shannon. She has the worst attitude ever. She doesnt want to work but she wants everything handed to her. For instance she thinks that my job should be hers cuz she has been there longer. Yeah, no. Mitch is trying to get her out. Yesterday she felt it was more important to find an apartment or a puppy than help me with the work. and she thought that since there were no notes then there was nothing for her to do. In my mind there is ALWAYS something to do. Work the overstock, straighten shelves, dust. There is ALWAYS something, it just might not be something you WANT to do. So while I am working she is playing. That pisses me off so we are not on good terms and I know she is gonna flip when I am her boss. Mitch is hoping it will be enough to make her quit so they dont have to fire her. Anyway, she asks me "So you dont care about doing hair at all?" I'm like "NO, I'm in it for the buisness part, not the salon part that is just a bonus" she was so disgusted. Does it matter why I'm there? No. It does not. So other than her, I like my job a lot. Of course my bodfy is way out of retail shape. I am not used to being on my feet for 8 hours anymore. I cant believe that I used to work for 8 straight hours without a break. How did I do that? Anyway, I am going to make some food and go to bed.