Randomness on this Sunday

Still no snow. Well, I should clarify, still no snow on our side of base. It has snowed several times over on the other side of base, our side is still getting rain, which is ok with me. But snow is in the forecast for everyday starting Tuesday. We'll see. Probably by the end of the week, but not earlier than that. I am staying home that day. I know it isn't ready to snow yet cuz me knee hasn't been hurting. I know when its ready to snow cuz my Old Lady knee starts to KILL me with pain, then I know its about a day away or so. And it doesn't hurt at all yet. The radio shows kept saying that this weekend was going to be the "big" first snow, you know the one that sticks, but I kept saying "nope, it wont, my knee doesn't hurt" So I was gloating about being right, and Matthew just looks at me and says "I never argued with you. I never said you were wrong." I don't care, I like being right, so I will gloat even if you agree with me!!! He's like "I know." lol. Poor boy. Oh well, if I have to deal with his nagging he had to deal with my gloating. lol.

I made some coffee today. It was glorious!!! My doc says its ok to have a little bit of caffeine, just don't overdo it. So I made a couple cups of coffee. She said it will probably help with my headaches a little bit. Since they may be a withdrawal symptoms from cutting caffeine completely out of my diet. But the down side is that my headaches could be coming from the hormone progesterone, also. So she said that the rise in hormones should be leveling up in the next two weeks or so, and the headaches should taper off. That is as long as it isn't my neck, which is also a possibility. I have found a chiropractor that I am considering going to. He is from Illinois, and went to Palmer. I just haven't gone. Add to the list of things I want to do, but dent have the means to do it. Mom said she would help out, cuz she knows its important, but I have yet to do it.

One thing I have done, is found a church to go to. Well, a couple actually that I want to try. I went to one this morning, and it was good, alot like Zion. And its right outside the gates on Boniface, so that is conveient. There is another one, more in the downtown area that I will try next month. But I need to rekindle my faith life. I know it is horribly lacking, and I feel like I need to do this, especially now that I am pregnant. I guess I made the realization when we started to try to get pg. I was praying that God would give us this gift and I felt guilty for asking for such a wonderful gift from Him. And I should never feel guilty for praying, but I did, because I felt like what have I done in my faith to make me feel that I have a right to ask such a thing? To be granted such a wonderful request when I haven't prayed in what was probably months at that point. So I need to heal my spiritual being before I can properly bring another into this world. Is that why I was granted my wish so quickly? Because He knew that it would save me from my lazy faith? Probably. But I cannot bring my child before Him in the Sacrament of Baptism with my faith in the condition that it is in. I mean, it hasn't gone anywhere. i believe as much as I every did, but I feel empty in my belief, because it isn't complete. I don't have a church family. And I know I need that. So I have begun my journey back to Him, and that is important. So in 6 months I can stand at the Baptismal Font and present my child to God with a pure heart. A healed heart.