This constant worrying is really starting to wear on me. Every twinge sends me into a panic. Well, maybe not a panic, but a "what was that? should that happen?" line of thinking. I dont know, maybe I would feel better if I thought I had someone to call like a regular doctor, but I dont. It sucks. And I am afraid o go to work, especially this weekend, since it is the case lot sale. And We will be really busy and all day would be loading cases of stuff. Which cant be good. But I know Tom is going to be calling me to come to work (I havent told them yet) and Iam going to have to find excuses for not going. I hope I get hat job at Marie's. It would take such a load off my shoulders. I feel bad for not going in to work, but I have to think about the baby too. Especially, given the events of the last couple days. If it wasnt a case lot I would go in, but... Anyway, I dont need to add to the worryig that isnt doing anyone any good. I am really trying to relax. I just have all these things swirling around in my head... I am sure thats normal for a first time mom. Or any new mom... I just wish they would get out of my head. I swear I am going stop reading things. I am turning into a pregnancy hyperchondriac. Everything I read, I think is happening to me, good or bad.