Do you know what is is to be completely alone when your wolrd falls out of your control? Its the knowledge that people people colest to you are 3600 miles away. It knowing that a part of your family is dying and you will never see them again. Its being outside andf not be able to breathe and finding no one there to help you. No one to taking you in their arms and remind you what you love. It having faint memories of your past life and clinging so hard to them that they are leaking through your fingers, and along with the only thing that keeps you from foalling into despair. Its they desprate desire to protect the ones you love from pain and being no where near them. Its waking from a nightmare with tears stills wet on your face to a cold dark empty house in a land where you have no real friends. Its trying to be brave but in the end knowing that you are going to die anyway so whats the point? How long has it been since I have felt this way. This cold. This empty.