I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. A lot. I dont really know. Lately, I feel like I am just swimming. I dont feel like I am drowning anymore. You know, just trying to keep my head above the water... Just swimming. With decisions and choices and regrets and stuff. Especially with the year mark coming up. The biggest thing is how much I have changed, I guess. I was so unhappy when I was there. So completely unhappy. I was kinda stressed out right before the walk, and I realized, I was like that ALL THE TIME. How did I live like that? All the time. No wonder my blood pressure was kinda high. Its not anymore, of course, but it was. One more way she found to hurt me.