St. Louis

I had myself all prepared to go to Illinois. I was ready, accepted it. Now we may end up in St. Louis and that's a little scary to me. I mean I was scared to move to Alaska too, but it doesn't make it easier. But I am very comfortable with the idea of Boeing. I feel there is security available there, for a decent life for Hayden. But I am kinda scared. I had time to adjust to the idea of Alaska, I don't have much time to adjust to this...if we even go to St Louis. Who knows where we could end up. But I keep telling myself that anywhere in the Lower 48 is closer to home than here. Long drives or short flights, its closer than here. So here we go. Another adjustment, another home.

Onsies

I found another website this going to get me in trouble! There are so many I want to get Hayden. Some CUTE hackey ones, which arent that easy to find in any store. And some AF ones too, like this one with the F-15 on it. It is fun to look through the site. Basically, if it can be made into a tee shirt, they'll put it on a onsie. I like this one too, and this one is funny. But its the cowbell one I HAVE to have before Hockey starts!

It has already started... I shall take this election personally. She's my governor above all else. And yes, Alaska's government IS corrupt and the person that is cleaning it out is Sarah Palin and her administration. She is breaking up the circle of the Boy's Club and Big Oil and bringing this corruption to light. That's why every night on our news you hear about another politician going to trial, or being sentence to jail. And she is turning Alaska around, and if McCain wins, we will be losing a GREAT Governor. That is kinda the air around here. Alaska is a very selfish state. We want what's ours. And while we our proud that one of "our own" is marching her way to the White House, everyone is wondering what happens to us? She is in the middle of cleaning up and who is truly going to finish the job if she leaves? It isn't known how far this corruption goes, so who can we trust to finish her work? Matthew thinks that I am going to vote Republican just because of Sarah. No that isn't true, I honestly don't know who I will vote for, I have issues with both. But I do have confidence in Sarah...

Awesome onesie

I am SO going to get one of these for Misters to wear. I hope I can get one before the pre season games in October.

Palin for Vice President

I am so excited. McCain picked MY Governor to be his Vice President. I am so proud right now. I knew she was on the list, but I didn't really think that he would pick her, but I am excited that he did. I don't know if this sways my vote, I am still undecided, but I like having her on the ticket. I am VERY interested seeing the debate between Sarah and Biden. Of course I will get pissed off when they start slinging crap about her... Its a proud day to be an Alaskan.

Halloween costumes

If I thought Hayden would stay in this, I would SO buy it! I also think this one is hilarious, but Hayden is too old for it. This one is a leading option for the iside joke of it.

Several updates

I have decided to move Hayden's bedtime up. slowly, half hour by half hour. So we are starting to do our routine at 8 now, so he is put in his crib by 8:30. I think it is best for everyone. It does mean that he gets up earlier... so that is my downside. So if I want my sleep, I should go to sleep when Hayden goes to sleep. But if I want to see Matthew for more than 30 minutes, I have to stay up with him. So it is hard to make my decision.

Today Hayden and I went to Housing so we could pay our $2.89 energy bill. We went over our allowance because of the air conditioner. Anyway, we went in and all I brought was Hayden (in his car seat) and $3. I get in there and one of the girls behind the counter tells me they don't accept cash. Are you kidding? Its $3. I don't even care about the 11 cents... They are not bonded for cash or something. So at this point, one of the girls is already down on the floor playing with Hayden. So I'm like "Ok, can you watch him so I can run out to the car and get my debit card?" And she is like "Of course I can watch this cutie!" So I run out to the car, when I get back BOTH of the girls are on the floor playing with Hayden, who was smiling and flirting as usual, and there was a guy waiting at the counter! But they were too busy playing with Hayden. He is such a ridiculous flirt!

We also went Wal-Mart on our outing because Misters needs bigger jammies, he has grown out of all of his jammies. And we had to get new diapers cuz Size 1 doesn't fit anymore. So my baby is in Size 2 diapers! :( He was having poopy leaks lately, which we haven't had since we switched to the Pampers/Luvs (Huggies SUCK), AND he was having pee leaks cuz he would move and the diaper would shift slightly cuz it was too small to cover his little (not so little) butt. The sucky thing is that I just bought an 86 ct package that I had just opened up to fill the basket, so I cant go and exchange it for the different size.... So we are just going to give them away, its better than throwing them out. I got him the cutest pair of shoes, little brown boots. But they didn't have the jammies that I wanted. I wanted to get some 6-9 month jammies cuz he is going to be out of 3-6 month jammies in about a month and a half or so, so I didn't want to spend $12 on new jammies that he wont be wearing in two months, but they didn't have ANY boys jammies in 6-9 month. NONE. I told you store were sexiest against boys. And Hayden decided he didn't want to wear pink Jammies, so we got one package of 3-6 months and will hope they have the right size when we need it.

I printed out the forms to obtain my Primary School Substitute Teacher Certification for the State of Illinois. Its an option. I want to do something a little more along the lines of what I posted before, but its an option.

Here Comes the Mouse...

Jobs

I'm going to end up back in retail. I despise the very thought of it. The thought of going back...it makes me want to cry. Right now, I am holding back the tears, thinking about it. But I don't think I can do anything. I am not qualified to do anything else. Everyone wants experience...I only have experience doing that...doing what I hate to the very core of me... But Matthew will be in school, I have to bring home the bacon... I have to provide for my family and I cant do that at just any job... I know I have to do what it takes. I just don't want to think about having to do that, to willingly go back to being that miserable. To working those shitty hours. Never having weekends or holidays off... I just don't want to do it. I want to do something I WANT to do. I want to work somewhere I enjoy going to everyday... I have ideas... I don't know... I would LOVE to do something like this. And I am qualified to do that, its why I took education courses, child development courses... So I have hope that there will be something similar out there. I could SO do that... I guess this is why I am starting now.

Here is another one: This looks promising

I have the best husband...

This is my "Becoming a Mommy" present from Matthew. Isnt it beautful? He picked it out and designed it all himself. The big heart is rubies (my birthstone) and the little one is diamonds (Hayden's birthstone) I love it so much.

Stupid Smokes-A-Lot Neighbors

I am going to have to do something about the smokes-a-lot neighbors. We have adapted and modified (though I am still VERY worried about when we turn on the heater) and done our best to not have to confront them, and ask them to change their living habits... but now they (I assume its him, not they) have the bass turned up SO high after 9 o'clock. I am so afraid it is going to wake him up. It is so loud and obnoxious. I am so over accommodating them. We have been BEYOND understanding, and yet they have NO respect for their neighbors. None. I just don't know what else to do... A confrontation is coming. Matthew doesn't want me to go make trouble, but I have been more polite than I have ever been before, and I guarantee the first time they wake up Hayden with their bass, there will be a VERY angry Mommy on their front step! I am just so worried about the heater thing. I kinda want to kick them on right now just so I have an idea of what we will be dealing with, if we need to be saving up for some mega purifiers. At least one for Hayden's room. I seriously think about keeping the vents closed in his room and using the space heater. The room is small enough that I think it would be able to keep it plenty warm enough, but then I would be paranoid about the heater overheating, but he have a really nice space heater that will shut off if it gets hotter than its programmed to get. So if I program it for 70 degrees and it reaches 71, it shuts off. Off, off, not just asleep off. So there is a VERY SLIM chance of that happening. I hate that I even have to deal with this.

Edit: it is now 10:56 and their bass is STILL going! If it didn't annoy me so much I would let Matthew turn ours up really high, and when its quiet over thee, but we know they're home we'd just blast it, but I cant stand the sound of just bass... the low frequency really bothers me, and makes it difficult to hear the rest of the sound. I don't know if its a sensitivity, but it starts to hurt me after awhile...

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Mister Hayden discusses the State Fair

Family Fun

Sorry about the lighting. We had every light on. Next time we will know that this is a bad place to be for taping. But we had a little Family Fun time today. Starring Hayden Matthew. Enjoy.

Alaska State Fair

SO yesterday was the big day, train ride and the fair. Matthew finally got to ride the train. I didn't realize it was his first train ride of any kind. I guess I take for granted all of the awesome things Dad took us to do when we were little. Now that I am older, I loo back and I am just amazed and VERY grateful that we were able to take the kinds of vacations that we took, I have seen and done some awesome things. Which makes me all the more determines to take Matthew to Baraboo when we go to the Dells with the Ga's so he can ride the train there.

Anyway, it was rainy, but not too bad. Hayden was a champ (like always). We had our fair food (I PAID for eating that funnel cake!) and we went to all the exhibits. There was a whole building dedicated to quilts. Matthew made sure that I could stop and look at the ones I really liked. And we went into the 4-H building, of course... There were SO MANY photography entries, but you can imagine with all the gorgeous opportunities around here. I would have a hard time judging them. Of course, I am not trained or anything, so that might make a difference, but there were SO many good ones that didn't get the placement I thought they should, and A LOT of 1st places that I didn't agree with, even in a artistic aspect... And there was a really cool craft segment with wood carvings. And some pretty cool cakes I took some pictures, I am debating on whether to include all the pictures in Picture Thursday or just do two separate albums. I will probably do 2 since a lot of the PT recipients could prolly care less about the fair! Anyway, in this craft part they had hand painted wares (i.e. plates, vases etc.) And I did NOT agree with that judging! There were some beautiful plates, and the Judge's choice was ridiculous. I should be a judge so I know its done right! LOL.

But one of the highlights, for me, of the fair happened completely by accident. We went into a building with Science a hands on type exhibits aimed towards the kids, of course, but the building had a real bathroom with changing table, so we went in there to get out of the drizzle and feed and change Hayden and let him get some sleep. Anyway, there was a show going on and Hobo Jim was preforming! I have wanted to go and see him, but his shows sell out really fast, so I've never been able to. It was really fun. The first time I ever heard "Where legends are Born" I cried, cuz it is just a perfect picture of Alaska. And it will be the way I remember this majestic place that has been my home for almost 5 years. (Oh, and should you be desiring some Christmas gift ideas, I wouldnt mind having some of his cd's, I have none as of yet. Just putting it out there, since I usually can't ever think of anything I want, I am trying to be better this year)

I just I am starting to get, not nostalgic, but I don't know the word I am looking for... I am realizing that we are going to be leaving this place. This scary, huge place that I never thought I would like, let alone come to love. I never thought I would feel at home here. And there is a sense of pride saying you are from Alaska. Because, while my roots are strongly planted in Iowa and always will be, I am an Alaskan too. My baby was born here, so we will always be tied to this place. He will always be an Alaskan, its his birth rite. Just like I will always be an Iowan. But now it is dawning on me that we wont BE here anymore. I keep telling Matthew that we will come back someday...and I truly want to. Someday, when Hayden is a little older, I want to come and show him where he was born. Matthew doesn't think it will ever happen. He wants so bad to ride the train to Denali, and he says that he will always regret not doing it. I knew he would. That's what hurts me so bad, I knew he would and I didn't insist on it when he had the chance. He says he will always regret not doing it. There are a few available in September that fall under the 2 for one deal so we would pay $244.30 for the whole trip, it doesn't go as far as the Denali Princess Lodge, it just goes to McKinley Princess Lodge. I don't remember the scenery up to McKinley Lodge... I'm sure its worth it. And Matthew really want to do it. I just wish we could... Oh, well. You put wishes in a jar and you can still see through it. We need to be conserving as much money as we can for the move. I just wish I knew whether my PFD application was going to be approved or not, then we could go ahead and do it. Oh well. Misters is awake now so I better go.

Thunderstorm

So this prolly isnt all that interesting to you, since you hae thunderstorms all the time, but this is the first one I have seen, in prolly years. It even HAILED!!! Hopefully, this isnt a sign for this weekend!

Sorry about this being sideways. I fofot how I was holding the camera, I was too distracted by the flood.

I think the next few months are going to be pretty hairy for and between Matthew and I as we start gearing up for the move. Matthew is getting stressed, which was earlier than I had anticipated, but I also didnt know he was going to start being the Expiditor at work. Plus all this crap with Russia...I think that is weighing on everyone's mind. Matthew and I had a brief discussion about it in which I told him that if anything happened I was packing up the kitties and taking Hayden home, and he agreed with me. I was like "I'm NOT kidding, I'm totally serious." "So am I." I just wanted to make sure he did agree with me. I dont know how we'd pay for it, but we would find a way. This is just going to be a rough few months. I would be more realistic to say its going to be a rough year... Oop, Misters is up, gotta go. Little Piggy prolly needs to eat, wish I could...

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