Rest in Peace baby Joey

I know that you were hurting, and I hope we did what was right. Jackie misses you so much. But I know that you are better now. There will never be another like you, with your little goatee. We loved you so much, but your heart was too big for this world. Rest in Peace little baby. You're home now.

We love you and we miss you. 

Dedicated to a little school house. All it taught me. All it gave me. And its memory that will always live in me.

This Used To Be My Playground

(originally from the movie "A League Of Their Own", andappearing on the "Barcelona Gold" album)written by Madonna and Shep PettiboneTrack 6, Time: 5:06 (short version), 6:03 (long version)-
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Chorus (first time without background vocals):
This used to be my playground [used to be]
This used to be my childhood dream
This used to be the place I ran to
Whenever I was in need
Of a friend
Why did it have to end

And why do they always say
Don't look back
Keep your head held high
Don't ask them why
Because life is short
And before you know
You're feeling old
And your heart is breaking
Don't hold on to the past
Well that's too much to ask

(Long and movie versions only:)
(chorus)
Live and learn
Well the years they flew
And we never knew
We were foolish then
We would never tire
And that little fire
Is still alive in me
It will never go away
Can't say goodbye to yesterday [can't say goodbye]

(chorus)
No regrets
But I wish that you
Were here with me
Well then there's hope yet
I can see your face
In our secret place
You're not just a memory
Say goodbye to yesterday [the dream]
Those are words
I'll never say [I'll never say]

This used to be my playground [used to be]
This used to be our pride and joy
This used to be the place we ran to
That no one in the world could dare destroy

(Short and movie versions only:)
This used to be our playground [used to be]
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
I wish you were standing here with me

(Movie version only:)
This used to be our playground [used to be]
This used to be our great escape
This used to be the place we ran to
This used to be our secret hiding place
This used to be our playground [used to be]
This used to be our childhood dream
This used to be the place we ran to
The best things in life are always free
Wishing you were here with me

The Break-Up. "Every new begining is some other begining's end" 

Since the Break-Up is official (its capitalized since it is a catistrophic event in my life) the air in the store is different. Almost like a mourning. Thats how I feel anyway. Because I am mourning. I know nothing else but Ralph and Lori and now there is no "and", so its hard for me. Like they are breaking up with me. I have spoken with both of them. They are each handling it in their own way. Ralph has gone into seclusion and Lori flew to Vegas for a few days. Some have said that was irresponsible of her to leave when this transition is taking place, but I cant blame her. News this big will fly through this town's beauty industry like wild fire. Hair dressers love a good story and love drama even more. But there is no drama. They broke up. Its not any of anyones buisness why. They just did. But people wont care. They will say what they want to no matter how hurtful. I've already heard it. And this just happened on Saturday. People saying he was after her money and shit like that. It hurts to think that people really think that about him. I made sure to let him know that as far as L.A. Style was concerned, he resigned and thats all we have to say. We are not involved in the personal stuff so we will not comment on the personal stuff. I will protect him, and her, as much as I can. I know how he really feels about her, and the store, about me, and that is all I care about and it is for those reasons that I will not feed the fire with any details that people may twist into slander. It is the least I can do, for both of them.

I know that he had to do what he had to do, and I understand that. When your personal life and your professional life get so intertwined together, when one doesnt work out, the other one cant continue. I know this. But that is also why I am mad at him, and both of them. Because now I get shoved into something that I dont think I am ready to take on. Her store lies in my hands. Solely in my hands. Ralph isnt my crutch anymore. But how dare you abandone me? How dare you! I have never known anything other than them. And for that I mourn.

Alright, so I realize that it hads been a long time since I have blogged, and I apologize, sort of. But I havent realt felt like it. Everything is going good. I just got back from Seattle. Had a nice time. Not really exciting to report. BUT I do have some exciting news. In a couple of weeks, I have a meeting with the VP of Pureology! Well, not just me, Jackie and Brandi and of ourse Lori will be there, but OMG, Pureology! This is like the mothership coming to visit. Awesome! ut right now I have to go grocery shopping so I thought i would let you know I was still around.