Day One...

...has drained me. I had fun though. Its good to be with Julie and Brian. Things are a little weird without Shirley. I don't know how to feel about it. I am very conflicted cuz Carol is a very nice lady, but it seems strange w/o Shirley here. I cant imagine how Matthew is feeling, probably similar though. We'll probably discuss it tonight. Jim didn't come along with us today. I think that hurt Matthew. I cant explain...I am just here for Matthew and to drive the car. And take pictures. I finally had an excuse to get out and get some pictures of the trees before the leaves all fall off. I have been meaning to do it for, oh, about 4 years now and this year I actually did it! I really just totally forgot to take pictures today, but we didn't do a WHOLE lot today. We went to eat at Moose's Tooth. It was pretty good. I stole a plate. Its a pretty awesome plate. Matthew agreed so he actually let me steal it (he even helped!) usually he yells at me. And we bought a pint glass that matches the plate. Yes, we bought it. They didn't serve their beer in pretty glasses like the Brewhouse. Probably cuz people steal them, lol. Ok, Matthew is home time for bed!

Conversations with Daddy

New noises

I guess alot of these turned out to be more for audio reasons then anything else but I hope you enjoy them. I dont know how much posting I will get done with Matthew's family here, so hopefully these will tide you over for a few days.

Daddy's in charge

THis is what goes on while Mommy is at work.

Tooth Watch '08

My poor little baby. He has been working so hard to get these teeth out, but they just wont pop. I can feel them right under the surface, but they wont come out and I know he is hurting. Mom said my first teeth came around 5 1/2 month so I wouldn't be surprised if they show up in the next week, but the poor little guy. He is quite the roller. He tried to roll off the changing table this morning. That was a first. He has never tried to get up over the railings before, so we will be needing to keep a closer eye on him (not that we don't now, we just don't worry about him rolling over the railings!) He LOVES to watch football. He is just absolutely transfixed by it. He is doing pretty good with the cereal. I made it a little thicker this time, and it was a better experience. He is kinda hit and miss on the tongue thing, sometimes he swallows it fine and sometimes he pushes it out with his tongue. But just like everything else, one day at a time. I am not in a hurry to lose these baby days. I have to stop myself when I start wanting him to crawl or whatever. I have to stop wishing his babyhood away, cuz it only lasts for so long. My little Misters is already so big, and I just keep urging him on, trying to move him to the next stage, which is fine for encouragement, but at the same time I don't want to dismiss him being a baby. Or maybe I should say, I don't want to MISS him being a baby. So when he cries I will squeeze him a little tighter, and when he laughs I will laugh with him and I will cherish every moment!

Anyway, we are actively in "Toothy Watch '08" mode so I will keep you updated.

First Cereal

I'm Free. today is the day. it's over.

5 Months

my baby is 5 months today. 5 months already. My little man. I cant believe how fast time is going...

He's such a Guy...

Arg, I am so sore. My shins hurt so bad. And my Achilles heel muscles are sore. But I actually feel really good. I am sore, but I feel really good. Matthew is still harping on me to exercise. It is starting to really bug me. Again. I know I discussed this previously, about me needing to do this because I want to do it, not because he is making me, which is how it is starting to feel again. We got into a heated discussion about this with him declaring that he will just stop caring about me then, and me being a silent bitch which is my favorite way to fight. We resolved that he would sit over by the computer and care and I would sit on the couch and be pissed/annoyed and that was what we agreed on. He is just such a guy. I was complaining that my shins hurt and made the comment that if I walked normal (heel-toe) rather than flat footed like I do, my shins wouldn't hurt enough. Well, being a guy, he thought that meant I needed him to solve the problem, when I just wanted some sympathy. He told me I should start walking around the block, concentrating on walking heel-toe to break the habit. It was also a good way for him to subtly tell me to exercise more. Which was too much. I could have shrugged off the need to "solve" my "problem", but it was the underlying exercise jab that pissed me off, especially since I am SO sore from working my ass off this weekend, and he's not giving me the sympathy I want, instead he's harping on me. ARG! So annoying. But kisses goodnight were given and all is well. It is just so funny (and a bit irritating) that when he fishes for sympathy/compliments and I do to him what he does to me (i.e. solve his issue, or tell him what to do differently) he gets all baby-like and says "Why don't you love me?" Because I'm not fawning all over him like he wants. But when I want sympathy and he giving me "solutions" I need to accept them and appreciate his suggestions, even when they are not wanted. And so I say again, he is such a guy!

Oh, and I told him that those videos were too funny to delete so I posted them. And he was like "Really?" and he watched them and was CRACKING up. The reaction he has at the end of the short video is his reaction to spit up, but he didnt know that he made that noise, and he just thought it was so funny and watched it like 5 times, just laughing harder each time. Which made me laugh cuz he is laughing. He's like "good thing you didnt delete that. I didnt realize it was so funny." I am just SO happy I watched them before I deleted them, instead of taking his word for it and just deleteing them.

My Big Boy

Daddy and Hayden

Matthew told me to delete these cuz he didnt think they were very good, but I thought they were adorable and Mommy makes the decisions regarding videos and pictures. So here they are:

Hayden, Jackie and the Jumeroo

OOOOWWWWWWWWW!

So I put in a whole day today. It was the case lot sale today. It was BRUTAL! And I am SORE. BUT I made some good money today so we will have some to spare for when People are up here next week. Since I wont be getting much work done then. But my back is killing me. You can only load so many cases of laundry detergent before you want to scream. Thank goodness I still have some Norco left over from after Hayden was born, so I plan on that getting me through tomorrow, which is the last day of the Case Lot sale. If I can do as good tomorrow as I did today we should be good.

I probably wont get much cleaning done this week. I don't know how many more nights I can go without sleep. Its starting to wear on me, I think. But Matthew can help out a little bit too. Mostly, at this point, it just picking up, and vacuuming. So I guess its not that bad. I just don't want to do it. That's what it really comes down to...

Karma: The Bathroom Edition

I think my head is going to explode. I have immersed me in allergy nightmares this week. Namely the basement which is filled with Jackie's hair and dander and now I am paying the price. Plus I am out of coffee so I am sure this is a caffeine headache also, so that cant be helping. I spent last night cleaning the kitchen. I deserted the drip pans, finally, and bought new ones. I tried to scrub the grease off the cupboards over the oven, but they still feel sticky. And what I don't get is why the cupboards are so sticky and the oven hood was hardly dirty at all. And a lot of it was just Jackie fur... And I wipe down the cupboards 600% more often then I clean the inside of the oven hood! I didn't scrub the floors and I STILL haven't done the upstairs bathroom. Honestly, I think I am putting it off. I know this is my punishment for never doing my chores (cleaning the bathrooms) as a kid. Cu Matthew doesn't clean the bathroom, and Katie never cleaned the bathroom either. So if it was to be done it had to be done by me. Its the same now. And I know its karma for not doing it when I was younger. Guess what one of Hayden's chores is going to be! LOL.

Baby's are in bed...

This is the best part of my day. I mean, don't get me wrong, I love playing with Hayden all day, but it gets tedious because I cant DO anything else. I scrubbed out the fridge today. That's it. No, we did go to Wal-Mart cuz Misters needed pants. Poor little man is still in 3 month sized pants and they about an inch too short. And I was once again disgusted at the lack of choices. The girls had a whole 4 tiered shelf unit dedicated to pants and shirt combos. The boys had two pegs. TWO PEGS!!!! So I got both of them cuz lord knows when I may find more pants. Cant find them at the BX anymore. That's right, I cant find PANTS at the BX anymore. None, unless I want to buy the whole $15 outfit for one pair of pants. AND while I am on the subject of pants, why cant I find black pants for him? Some knit black pants, like all of his other pants, just black. Nowhere. Not even online. I cant find them. So if you happen to find any let me know where so I can get some in every size since they are IMPOSSIBLE to find. I want them for the hockey games cuz black will match better. I also need black shoes, which I found at the BX (shockingly) but I didn't buy them, for whatever reason. I am down to 4 pairs of pants (not counting the four I bought today) I hope the next time I go to the BX they will have put out some pants. Otherwise, my next option is Fred Meyers, I guess. The poor boy needs pants that fit and with snow on its way, he needs them soon. So I guess we will be taking another trip tomorrow. I don't know where else to go. JCP has a pitiful selection also. I didn't think about Old Navy though. We have one of those... maybe they will have something... So either way I guess we are going to have to go on a little trip tomorrow.

Unrelated side note: Smokes-a-lot neighbor is vacuuming at 8:30 at night. Annoying.

One day at a time...

I have decided that my stress is rooted in my fears of moving. I am not stressed, I am scared. And that is an important difference. Because I AM scared. I am more scared about this move than I was about moving to Alaska. Of course, there are LARGE differences between the two. At least I will be closer to home. I keep telling myself, I will be closer to home, I will be closer to home. I just need to do this the same way I have done everything else, one day at a time. I have gotten through everything else that way. I have gotten through the last 4 years away from home, one day at a time. I have gotten through the last 2 years, since L.A., one day at a time. And I will get through this one day at a time... And I will continue to sort and clean and make my lists because it is my way to deal with my fears. Because it is the only thing I know how to do. I will continue to do what I can because it is the only thing I can do. And sink or swim, we will do this together. Because that is how we have done everything. We will do this as a family, and we will do our best... People do it all of the time. We can too.

Am I trying to convince you, or myself?

Its that time

A warning for our visitors, there is termination dust on the mountains, and snow in the forcast for the 26th. Just be aware when you are packing, that for you, you're packing for early winter, NOT fall.

It Came!!!

He was pretty unsure about this at first. He wouldn't put his feet on the ground, but once he discovered that it made noise when he moved, he started to enjoy it a lot more. Thank you Grandma Rosies!

Accomplished

I have had a productive couple of hours. I am using my insomnia to get things done. I made Matthew's lunch, I broke down a bunch of the boxes downstairs. I cleaned out two drawers and a cupboard. And got rid of three bags of crap. LOTS of boxes. I feel good. There is A LOT of cat hair downstairs. It was too much, so I couldn't do a whole lot down there, cuz I was sneezing and my eyes are all itchy... Sometimes I forget what cats can do to me. But Jackie likes to climb on and lie on those boxes so there are hair balls all over and stuck in the tape, etc. I am probably going to pay for that, plus all of the dust that is down there...good thing I have some Clairatin on hand, so I took some of that so hopefully I wont have a massive head ache tomorrow. Cuz I need to go pay Matthew's truck payment and get kitty litter... And I have to finish my laundry... So much to do... BUT I figured if I am going to be awake, then I am going to get something done, that way my brain cant drive me crazy with all of these thoughts that I cant do anything about, but I am tired now so I am going to try to go to bed. I think part of the reason I cant get to sleep is because Matthew is here. I have been sleeping without him for SO long that having him there throws my routine all off. Hayden isn't the only one who has a night time routine! And he takes up my room and I cant watch Friends, which is REALLY throwing me off, cuz that is how I wind down, with my Friends. And I don't have that right now because he is already asleep when I need to go to bed. And i just cant go to bed at 9:30. Even if I should cuz Hayden wakes up at 7ish and stays awake now, so that means I do too.

OH! It was SO adorable this afternoon, I had Hayden sitting in his Bumbo seat at the top of the small stairs to the entry way while I cleaned the downstairs bathroom. I should start by saying that this weekend, while Matthew was converting to days, he took care of Hayden ALL day while I was at work. So it was boy's time this weekend. So this morning, I think Hayden was missing his Daddy since they spent so much time together this weekend. He kept watching the stairs all morning, like he was waiting for Matthew to come down the stairs. Anyway, he was sitting at the top of the stairs when Matthew walked in the door from work, and Hayden's face just LIT UP/ He was SO happy to see Daddy. I think he really missed Daddy today. It was so adorable.

Ok, I'm going to bed now.