P.S.

My pants dont fit anymore. Unless they have a bit of stretch and I dont button them... Most of my dress pants dont fit... So I had to get some from JC Penny's to wear to Marie's and stuff. Cant walk around with my pants unbuttoned!!! lol.

Pumpkin Ban!?!

Ok, so its not really a ban but it might as well be!!! The Wildlife Officers on base have issued a notice that Halloween pumpkins can only be displayed outside from October 29 through November 2nd. That's it? 5 days of Halloween fun? Cuz moose LOVE pumpkins, and come into housing to eat the pumpkin treats, we cant have pumpkins outside. You can have artificial pumpkins outside and real pumpkins inside, but that's not natural. And to top it all off, if you decide to defy the new ordinance it will result in a $110 fine. $110 pumpkin? Ruin my Halloween. Oh, AND they made Trick-Or-Treating at 3 o'clock in the afternoon. WHAT!?!?!?!?! Who is home at 3pm except a few stay at home moms and people who are sleeping cuz they work the night shift!?! I mean I realize they want to do it when there is more light, so its safer, and I realize that if they make it around 4 or 5 pm there is A LOT of traffic cuz that's rush hour on base, when people are getting off work, but is a bit ridiculous. And I am kinda peeve, cuz I bought all this candy for the kids, which neither me OR Matthew need to be eating, but neither of us are going to be available to answer the door. Matthew isn't going to wake up to do it, that's right in the middle of his night, and I am not going to be home, even if I was the doorbell would be ringing constantly, waking him up anyway... Halloween is shaping up to be a big fat let-down.

And this one is just for fun...

Pink ice: Preseason Hockey

Ok, so I said that I would pots pictures from the pink ice games,and I am finally getting around to it!!! There were two games. The first night was Cancer Awareness and the second night was Breast Cancer Awareness. It was a fun time for a good cause.



I didnt think it looked quite as bad as that picture in the ADN made it look, but it was interesting.

The jerseys were pretty neat.

This is Becks, our goalie fro Peoria, and Troy Riddle who used to play for us. they were both on the Kelly Cup team.

Zamboni-ing the ice

This would be the line to get the limited edition pink cow bells. Shown below. And yes that is a line on BOTH sides of the cage.

The highly coveted bell that they sold out of. They could have sold hundreds more if they had ordered more. Next time they'll know.

And this would be Bo Cheesman. He is one of the new additions to the team, and he is already a fan favorite. For good reason, he is excited to play for Alaska, he is talented and fun to watch. Anyway, they auctioned off the jerseys after the second game. Mr. Cheesman's new found fame got $4700 for his jersey. The highest bid for the night. Insane for a player who hadnt even actually made the team roster yet. (Even though there is no doubt in ANYONE's mind that he will be on that roster.)

Ok, these hormones better level off soon cuz these hot/cold flashes are freakin ridiculous!!!! I shouldn't have to deal with this for at LEAST another 20 years!!!!! Sometimes I am so hot, I cant breathe. Like being in a small closet, on a hot day, without any ventilation. That's how I feel in this house. But I cant open the windows cuz that will just kick on the heaters and make it even worse. So here is hoping that I don't have much longer with this part. Ridiculous!

Randomness on this Sunday

Still no snow. Well, I should clarify, still no snow on our side of base. It has snowed several times over on the other side of base, our side is still getting rain, which is ok with me. But snow is in the forecast for everyday starting Tuesday. We'll see. Probably by the end of the week, but not earlier than that. I am staying home that day. I know it isn't ready to snow yet cuz me knee hasn't been hurting. I know when its ready to snow cuz my Old Lady knee starts to KILL me with pain, then I know its about a day away or so. And it doesn't hurt at all yet. The radio shows kept saying that this weekend was going to be the "big" first snow, you know the one that sticks, but I kept saying "nope, it wont, my knee doesn't hurt" So I was gloating about being right, and Matthew just looks at me and says "I never argued with you. I never said you were wrong." I don't care, I like being right, so I will gloat even if you agree with me!!! He's like "I know." lol. Poor boy. Oh well, if I have to deal with his nagging he had to deal with my gloating. lol.

I made some coffee today. It was glorious!!! My doc says its ok to have a little bit of caffeine, just don't overdo it. So I made a couple cups of coffee. She said it will probably help with my headaches a little bit. Since they may be a withdrawal symptoms from cutting caffeine completely out of my diet. But the down side is that my headaches could be coming from the hormone progesterone, also. So she said that the rise in hormones should be leveling up in the next two weeks or so, and the headaches should taper off. That is as long as it isn't my neck, which is also a possibility. I have found a chiropractor that I am considering going to. He is from Illinois, and went to Palmer. I just haven't gone. Add to the list of things I want to do, but dent have the means to do it. Mom said she would help out, cuz she knows its important, but I have yet to do it.

One thing I have done, is found a church to go to. Well, a couple actually that I want to try. I went to one this morning, and it was good, alot like Zion. And its right outside the gates on Boniface, so that is conveient. There is another one, more in the downtown area that I will try next month. But I need to rekindle my faith life. I know it is horribly lacking, and I feel like I need to do this, especially now that I am pregnant. I guess I made the realization when we started to try to get pg. I was praying that God would give us this gift and I felt guilty for asking for such a wonderful gift from Him. And I should never feel guilty for praying, but I did, because I felt like what have I done in my faith to make me feel that I have a right to ask such a thing? To be granted such a wonderful request when I haven't prayed in what was probably months at that point. So I need to heal my spiritual being before I can properly bring another into this world. Is that why I was granted my wish so quickly? Because He knew that it would save me from my lazy faith? Probably. But I cannot bring my child before Him in the Sacrament of Baptism with my faith in the condition that it is in. I mean, it hasn't gone anywhere. i believe as much as I every did, but I feel empty in my belief, because it isn't complete. I don't have a church family. And I know I need that. So I have begun my journey back to Him, and that is important. So in 6 months I can stand at the Baptismal Font and present my child to God with a pure heart. A healed heart.

Random crap

My abdomen feels weird today. Like hard. Its weird, cuz its not really from the outside, its the inside, like if I contract my muscles I can only go so far and I hit a wall. Its weird. Anyway, last night's game as SO much better than the first, AND we won. Which as an added bonus, cuz we won in the last two minutes or so. It was fun. MUCH better than the Wednesday game, cuz that was just awkward and uncomfortable, cuz you could tell them weren't used to playing together, and it was like the fourth time on ice together, the second time in the Sully. So we had fun. We are hoping that the old lady we were next to isn't a season ticket holder. She is a large butted woman, and makes it uncomfortable, plus she talks all the time and says stupid stuff. Anyway, here's hoping for a season without have to deal with her. I am still waiting on the job thing. I am going to call later this afternoon, just to check in. I want to take a nap, but I don't know if I will. I have to go get more milk, of course, what else is new? I'm gonna go later though, I just don't have the energy to get up right now.

Mom sent me the Premium Greens powder that she has been taking. It really helped with the heartburn, but I gag drinking it. I don't know why, it doesn't really taste bad, per say, I just cant drink it. So the doctor told me that I need to get more protein, so I have been making protein shakes, and I have found that I can put one scoop in the protein shake so its less intense. But the protein helped. I wish I could get two scoops in , but I figure one is enough for now. Maybe I will need two later on if I need to start getting things moving, which has been a bit of a problem, if I don't drink my 64 oz of water a day. But I have read it can get really bad. Anyway, on a less TMI subject, the protein shakes should help with the protein thing. SO that is one less thing to be concerned about. I do worry a bit that I am getting my protein and my vegetables from a powder, but its not like that's ALL I'm eating, it just to make sure I am getting enough of everything.

I have decided to go look at new glasses. Back in January, when I went to the eye doctor he gave me a prescription for my glasses, but I am thinking it may be time for new ones. I kind of feel like these are just too small for my eyes. They were fine when I was 14 when I got them, but now I just don't feel like they are a good fit cuz there is so much around them, like my peripheral vision is non existent, so it hurts my eyes cuz if I turn my glance, then I have to constantly adjust from seeing "clearly" and not seeing at all. And I say "clearly" cuz I don't even remember the last time I got the prescription updated... Just one more thing that will probably never happen...

11 Weeks

Your pregnancy: 11 weeks

How your baby's growing:Your fig-sized baby is now fully formed — measuring 1 1/2 inches long and weighing in at a quarter of an ounce. His skin is still transparent, allowing many of his blood vessels to show through. Some of his bones are beginning to harden, and tiny toothbuds are starting to appear under his gums. His fingers and toes have separated, and he may soon be able to open and close his fists. He's already busy kicking and stretching, and his tiny movements are so fluid they look like water ballet. These movements will increase as his body grows and becomes more developed and functional. As his diaphragm develops, your tiny tenant may also start to get the hiccups. Because he's still so small, though, you won't feel any of his workouts or intrauterine gulps until sometime between weeks 16 and 20.

End of Day

I am 99% sure I felt the baby move today. It was a strange feeling, like popcorn popping on my right lower abdomen. It wasnt hungry, it wasnt gas... It was different. I wish it would happen again, so I could be sure...

The hockey game was disappointing. Well, not really I guess. It served its purpose, anyway, that's what's important. We ended up losing, but the jerseys were cool and the ice was crazy!! It wasnt as bad as the picture in the ADN made it out to be. Tomorrow should be better. But it was hockey and it was Aces' hockey so that's really all that's important.

Heater

We finally turned the heater on. Matthew has been wanting to, but I wouldnt let him. But yesterday I was just cold all day so I decided it was time. We're lucky to get to 40 during the day and this weekend it snowed on the other side of base. We went to the Shoppette on Sunday, cuz I wanted a donut with white frosting, which they didnt have, and there were two cars in the parking lot. Both had snow on them. I couldnt believe it was snow! Cuz we didnt get any snow, but when we drove to the commissary, slowly we started seeing snow on rocks and thenon rooftops and on the hill where the sun didnt shine. It was ust weird cuz we didnt have anything. So the time is a comin... Of course we knew it wasnt far away. It is October afterall.

First hockey game is tonight. I am surprised that Matthew got to sleep he has been so excited. Check out the "pink" ice.

http://www.adn.com/sports/story/9368244p-9282048c.html

Pretty intense! The players practiced on it yesterday, said it was kinda hard to see the puck at first, util your eyes adjusted to the color. Gonna have to wear my sunglasses! I'll bring my camera so you can see the pink jerseys too. Gotta say, I am pretty excited too!

Appointment results

Ok, its the moment you have all been waiting for. I went to the doctor today. All is going well. My due date has changed to May 3rd. Baby is about 3.27 cm. The ultrasound was amazing. We got to see AND hear the heartbeat, about 175 beats per minute. I was crying. We have a mover and a shaker. Dr. Ostrand was trying to get a measurement, but she couldn't get all of Cricket in the picture at once cuz of the moving. She would get the head in and then the body would disappear. And then she would get the body and the head would disappear. I have to do a glucose test early, which I figured would happen. And my blood pressure was a little high again, but it always is when they take it at the beginning of the appointment, cuz I don't like to go to the doctor. So usually if they wait till the end of the appointment it will be normal. So I am not too worried about that at this point, but they are going to keep an eye on it, just to be safe. But I feel a million times beer knowing that everything is ok, and being able to see my baby was just the best moment of my life (so far). Just this little amazing, beautiful, little thing. It is just indescribable.

Interview

The interview went well. I am going back tomorrow for a "trial day". I don't need it, well, that's a little cocky, I do need to refresh myself on some of the lines I was less familiar with, like Tri. But she seemed impressed with me, I brought my certificates from Graham Webb and Pureology for advanced product and retail training. So chalk that one up to my former employer. But I was the one who fought to go, even though I am not hair stylist, so chalk THAT one up to me. lol. So here we go, on our way to a job, maybe this will get Matthew off my back. To be completely honest, I am not looking forward to losing my sleep. I guess I will have to start going to bed at 9 pm, so I can continue to get my sleep And I will have to reacquaint myself with standing all day. Anyway, Now I just have the doctor's appointment to get through. I first have to find something to eat! I am starving. I remember when a bowl of Grape Nuts would keep me full all morning through to lunch, not anymore!! Oh well, I may go to Arby's for Market Fresh sandwich. I saw an add for Arby's and the curly fries a couple days ago, and I cant get it out of my head! LOL. That's life I guess.

THEY CALLED!!!!! I have an appointment for an interview tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is a big day! But they CALLED!!!!! Just wanted to let you know.

Nothing special

I am pretty excited for tomorrow (my doctor's appt) I have been waiting for this for what two and a half months or so? So I am ready to get this going here... see how things are going and such. I am ready to know if everything is ok, or not for that matter, but I need to know... so today is going to go by really slow cuz I just want it to be tomorrow. I hope they do an ultrasound, I know I have said it before, but I really do. It is just so hard not knowing what is going on! On a development note, my stomach is getting hard. I noticed it last night, my stomach is just really hard, even Matthew said something about it, cuz if your poke my stomach, its hard. I dont know what that means, but its something.

10 Weeks

Your pregnancy: 10 weeks

How your baby's growing:Though he's barely the size of a kumquat — a little over an inch or so long, crown to bottom — and weighs less than a quarter of an ounce, your baby has now completed the most critical portion of his development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in his body rapidly grow and mature.He's swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including his kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy.If you could take a peek inside your womb, you'd spot minute details, like tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin.In other developments: Your baby's limbs can bend now. His hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over his heart, and his feet may be long enough to meet in front of his body. The outline of his spine is clearly visible through translucent skin, and spinal nerves are beginning to stretch out from his spinal cord. Your baby's forehead temporarily bulges with his developing brain and sits very high on his head, which measures half the length of his body. From crown to rump, he's about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, your baby will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.

Dinner out...

I went out to supper with Carrie and Amber tonight. It was nice. I hate to say it, but it was nice to get away from Matthew. As soon as I got home though, he started in on how it is too cold in the house (cuz I wont let him turn on the heater yet) and questions about the PFD, and why we didn't get it, and that I should call them to find out why I didn't get it. And is Marie's still "yanking" me around? And on and on... And I just wanted to go back to the girls, and all the talk of babies, and girl talk. No one nagging me about a job or money or temperature or hockey or anything, just actual conversation about how I am feeling, about how Amber is feeling, comparing symptoms, etc. About friends and life and real conversations. I love Matthew so much, and he is my best friend, but I forgot what I was missing when I distanced myself from my girl-friends. I need to have these conversations. I need to have people care about other things than those naggings mentioned above. I always thought I would be the one to nag him to death, but it seems it may end up being the other way around.

She didnt call...

I waited all day but she never called. I will give her till noon tomorrow, and then I will call her. I mean she is the owner, and this isn't really her job, so I am not getting too upset yet. I just don't know what to do about Matt. He is really getting to me about this. I am doing what I can to get this job, but it is literally constant with him. He went on literally for a straight 30 minutes last night grilling me about this situation. I don't know how many different ways I can tell him that I called and I am waiting to hear back. I cant force her to call me. And it is all the time. Its getting to the point where I don't even want to talk to him cuz that's all it is, is nagging and constant repetitive questions that I cant answer. So finally I just said, "When I know something, you will know something." And I just answer every question like that. I don't need his added stress on me. A new job is stressful enough without him adding to it. I just don't know what else to do. I know that he is tired and burnt out and I know all of this, but I am trying. And I am trying to get a job that I will be happy at, cuz I am going to be there awhile. I just wish he wasn't so damn impatient. He cant wait for anything, everything has to happen right this second or he goes into hissy fits like a child. I am just so over this!

They haven't called yet. Why haven't they called me yet? They don't want me. I'm damaged goods... I'll never get a job again. Why haven't they called?!Is it too pressuming (I dont think that's a word) to call them? I don't want to be too desperate. But I am... I don't know. I guess it is only 11:30. But still. CALL ME!!!

Job: Cross Your Fingers

I called Marie's back to follow up on my last conversation with them. And the Store Manager is on vacation, that's why I haven't heard anything. Anyway, I talked to Marie today and she is going to give me a call tomorrow, since she didn't have my application at the store. And she knew who I was and everything cuz Jen has been dropping my name. So send out good thoughts and vibes and prayers and stuff, cuz not only do I need this job, I really WANT this job. I didn't think I would want to go back into the industry, but I really do. When I think about NOT getting the job, I am just depressed, and I cant see myself anywhere else, now that I have had the chance. So please, send out the good karmic vibes in the universe, I could use them! So here's hoping. I will be devastated if I don't get this job.

Oops.

So I went grocery shopping yesterday, right? I totally forgot to buy Lasagna! I am apparently still stuck on the cottage cheese thing cuz I got that instead of lasagna. So I have to go back and get some. I may have to get the family size. That way I can cook it, and then divide it up into servings and keep them in the fridge for when the craving hits me. All I have to do is warm it up. It sounds like a good Idea to me! I made a cake for Matthew (cuz he wanted some cake, which is odd cuz he doesn't like cake that much) and it took all my will power not to lick the batter off my finger or the spatula, but I didn't do it. It was hard.